1983 Remix Lyrics - Napalm - Xzibit

I had the right to sublur, because they ache Explainone stick 

I saw five to six million but, yo, that really ain't really shit 

It was supposed to be different, we was supposed to ride out 

But tumach shot his girl, then shot himself in the mouth 

Then the steady game form very soon fell apart 

'cause when you just doing all, with no loyalty in your heart 

It's like catchin Alzheimer's all these niggas forgetting where they're coming from 

And they're slowing down, wait a minute, what we're running from? 

This what we're supposed to do, here's where we're supposed to be 

I hated MTV for trying to play me like a mockery 

But that don't bother me, I just fulfill my fucking contract 

Small price to pay just to get ya piece of mind back 

My back, backfire, assassination of my character 

Just to makes some millions off America 

My younger sister, Erika, just adopted a child 

My older brother served fifteen, he made it out 

Even though my father loved me, I ain't seen him in a while 

Had to fight my baby mama, bitch, give me my nigga now 

'cause He's running out of time and I need him to understand 

The way the superior man had build a brand 

Niggas talk about my taxes, I done paid Uncle sam 

I'm surviving 'cause the mind's eye's quicker than the hand 

Heartbreak, disappointment, my mother died when I was nine, I just wanted to join her 

Naw Mr. Joiner, you get to California, I got something for you to do 

It was like I was annointed 

Resurrected, found my purpose, I remember meetin' Dre, being nervous when I would kick my verses 

I was virtually worthless 

My whole life was a circus 

I was sleeping with serpents 

And I thought it is worth it 

I got a call from Paul, told me shit wasn't working 

Exchange words, I told him tell me that shit in person 

He probably told Em, and by the way did he said it unapologetic twisted made about him 

I seen Slim and he said he didn't recognize me 

Was it that or did he let another man define me? 

I don't know, but now I gotta get this all behind me 

Follow my calling when I used to follow niggas blindly 

I wish I had a better relationship with my uncles 

Blood relatives I could turn to when I'm feeling trouble 

And talk about my struggles 

My uncle John Nail, he only put me on the phone with different females 

And this is such a such, nephew, tell her, what's up? 

Ain't even ask about Tremaine and Gallen?...., growing up 

Fuck, I drink it all and I smash the bottle 

Self medicated numb, but I'mma feel it tomorrow 

It feel like pain and sorrow was like a second skin 

But now that pain was gone I got my second wind 

Only the strong live long, you better settle in 

I'm fighting forever, I will never let the devil win 

1983, that's where my journey begins 

I searched every word for strength, only find it within 

This for me and my kid, still trying to live 

Living life to the fullest 'till I see you again