1983 Lyrics - Napalm - Xzibit

I had the right to sublurr, because they ache one stick 

I saw five to six million but, yo, that ain't really shit 

It was supposed to be different, we were supposed to write out 

But tumach shot his girl, then shot himself in the mouth 

Then the steady game form very soon fell apart 

Because when you just doing all, the loyalty in your heart 

Slight catch a long hymn on all these niggas 

Forgetting where they're coming from 

And they're slowing down, wait a minute, what we're running from? 

This what we're supposed to do, here's where we're supposed to be 

I hated MTV for trying to play me like a mockery 

But that don't bother me, I just fulfill my fucking contract 

Small price to pay just to take a piece of my back 

My back, backfire, assassination of my character 

Just demassing me in the America 

My younger sister, Erika, just adopted a child 

My older brother served fifteen, he made it out 

Even though my father loved me, I ain't seen him for a while 

Had to fight my baby, bitch, give me my nigga now 

Cause I'm running out of time and I need him to understand 

The way a superior man had build a brand 

Niggas talk about my taxes, had to pay, I consemn 

I'm surviving cause the lines ass crooked in the hand 

Heartbreak, disappointment, my mother died when I was nine 

I just wanted to join her 

Now I miss to join her, get to California 

I got something for you to do, it was like I was annoying 

Resurrected, found my purpose, I remember being dragged 

Being nervous when I would kick my verses 

I was virtually worthless, my whole life was a circus 

I was sleeping with serpents and I thought it is worth it 

Got a call from Paul, told me shit isn't working 

Exchange words, told me tell me that shit in person 

He probably told him, and by the way did he said it 

On a prolijetic twisted made about him 

I see Slim and he said he didn't recognize me 

Was it that or did he let another man to find me? 

I don't know, but now I gotta get this all behind me 

Follow my calling when I used to follow niggas blindly 

I wish I had a better relationship with my uncles 

Blood relatives I could turn to when I'm feeling trouble 

And talk about my struggles 

My uncle John Nail, he only put me on the phone 

With different females 

And this is such a such, nephew, tell me, what's up? 

Ain't even ask about your man in Cali, growing up 

Fuck, I drink it all and I smash the bottle 

Self medicated numb, but I'm a feel it tomorrow 

It feel like pain and sorrow was like a second skin 

But now that pain was gone I got my second win 

Only the strong live long, you better settle in 

I'm fighting for ever, I will never let the devil win 

1983, that's when my journey begins 

I searched every word for stritting, only find it within 

This for me and my kid, still trying to live 

Living life to the fullest 'till I see you again