This isn't who I am. From confidence to self doubt in sixty seconds. Storming stages and stereos from here to there. Trying to prove that I belong. Trying to win approval from people that I don't know.
I'm weak like a one-armed boxer. Throwing punch after punch. After punch I, I give in. I'm so dumb, I'm surprised when they duck. . Scared, paired walking soldiers.
The sidewalk's cracked and dirty face. Is look up from underneath my feet,. It's staring at the hallow, broken boy,. Who's lost and wandering these same old streets,.
That's just like me when everything's gone wrong. To latch onto something even less stable, less good. I needed an anchor for my sinking ship. It's just like me to attach it to my heart instead.
You never really knew. The things you learned would matter,. The things you did and didn't do would someday define you,. The things you hate the most,.
The night skys black and I'm awake lying on the ground. The grass beneath my feet is hard and cold just like I've come to be. The stars are gone behind the clouds and I can't see a thing.
Well, Today is the 15th. And you know what that means,. Time to sit and go through boxes of old pictures. See if I can bring myself to,. The brink of giving up,.
It's getting cold. Thought it was too soon to tell but it was terribly old and as the heartbeat slows to a heartless crawl. The lights went out,. The lights went out and darkness filled the house on tiring night under a Long Island sky.
Don't lift me up. With your strong intent on dropping me back down. Are you like this, afraid to be yourself?. And if you somehow get through all of this.
If our world falls down tomorrow. You be sure I'll be there with a net. To catch the pieces falling. And I was always there. . And I was always there.
Don't mean to scare you but I. I've not been sleeping lately. And phone calls aren't doing much to help. . So if it's all the same I'd. Just ask to never have to.
Push me out from the darkness. To a sky that's colored blue. Somewhere someone's finding happiness. While I'm still here so hung up on you. . Nothing is real.
I can't go on. Deflate the air from both of my lungs. Fears one by one followed me home. And became reality. . I'm a failure, I'm a freak. I'm a chip on your shoulder.
It seems like you're holding me down and it just seems pointless to work this thing out. So what's holding me back?. A lifelong friendship's not worth this.
The sharper the edge, the cleaner the wound. So I'll be keeping it dull tonight for I deserve to hurt. Disfigure the outside to show how ruined I am. There's no pain and no pleasure when you're too numb to feel.
I've got a stage and a mic. Which I use to say things you won't like. But I spent years thinking I was alone. . Now I know, now I know, that I'm not, that I'm not.
Breathe kids, the mold is getting old. It'll be gone any day. The hipster empire of tomorrow. Will fall to the common kids of today. . With tied wrists we're under their control.
You wanted to know just what makes me tick,. I guess I could say that,. You and your bullshit,. Are pushing me towards an explosion. I guess you're what drives me.
I'm so tired of the stupid games you play. If I sat outside would you come watch me wait?. If I had a gun and shot it at your face?. Would you promise not to get out of the way?.
Drink up beautiful. I spiked your cup with angst and a heart attack,. 'Cause I've got so much trapped and it's all because of you. So I figured you might like some back.