Forgive Me Lyrics - Searching For Jerry Garcia - Proof

Barely raised by my dysfunctional fam 

Here I stand as a dysfunctional man 

Quick temper, short fuse and pissed at God 

Demons pullin' at my soul till it's ripped apart 

Sickest heart, mama that fire I started it 

Fuck the fireman logic of the closet while the wires shit 

Was positive for bout a [unverified] to bust nuts 

Then bust up, and a mama that don't show her son enough love 

That's why I run from my first son 

And force these chicken head bitches to get abortions 

I married the game, my mistress is fame 

My girl packed her close, shit she know I ain't gon' change 

Go insane in the world, evil is [unverified] 

I done shot at houses, people and cars 

The deeper the scars, the worst is the history 

God you ain't gotta forgive me, just don't forget me 

Lord forgive me, for I've sinned 

Over and over again, just to stay on top 

I recall memories, filled with sin 

Over and over again, and again 

And most importantly, I'm tryna support my seeds 

Can't seem to get away from them court and fees 

Embroidery of my hood across my heart disorderly 

Breakin' in houses of people who ain't got more than me 

Accordingly, I'm movin' error 

Gotta face the fact though, I can't fool this mirror 

Neglecting my daughter and tryna blame on how I was brought up 

Like I'm a product of my environment, why ain't I shot up 

Got up today like why you let me breathe again 

And with each breath I feel death is creepin' in 

Thinkin' sin is a [unverified] and I'ma finish last 

My pen and [unverified] caught my life as each minute passed 

Passed minutes, I shook sin and took drugs 

I did right by you but still you took Bugz 

Then caught me in adultery, fought me 

For not knowin' in through the dark streets 

You want me, talk to me 

Lord forgive me, for I've sinned 

Over and over again, just to stay on top 

I recall memories, filled with sin 

Over and over again, and again 

It's the wrists that's a rush to rush my wrists into cuffs 

It's like a fight for your attention and love 

Speakin' of Bugz, give me a hint from above 

If he not you know I wanna be shit when I'm done 

Kid outta wedlock so my lady frontin' 

I love 'em 'cause he gave me somethin' 

A positive anything is better than a negative nothin' 

I was on the edge of death ready to jump in 

It's hard when you can't find love anywhere 

And just because the rev [unverified] don't really care 

Pop fo' crack with a sufferin' past 

I dream of black and white, the world color me bad 

Other than sad, painful and stressed 

Life is good with the wealth that's tangled with death 

Control board or control the school 

I've sinned amongst men and my soul is yours 

Lord forgive me, for I've sinned 

Over and over again, just to stay on top 

I recall memories, filled with sin 

Over and over again, and again 

Lord forgive me, for I've sinned 

Over and over again, just to stay on top 

I recall memories, filled with sin 

Over and over again, and again