Nylon Smile Lyrics - Third - Portishead

I'd like to laugh at what you said but I just can't find a smile 

I wonder why I can't, I struggle with myself 

Hoping I might change a little 

Hoping that I might be someone I wanna be 

Looking out I wanna know someone might care 

Looking out I want a reason to be there 

'Cause I don't know what I've done to deserve you 

And I don't know what I'd do without you 

Looking out I wanna know some way might clear 

Looking out I want a reason to repair 

'Cause I don't know what I've done to deserve you 

And I don't know what I'll do without you 

I can't see nothing good, nothing is so bad 

I never had the chance to explain exactly what I meant