Breaking Rules Lyrics - Throwing The Game - Lucky Boys Confusion

Words divide 

Touched down on a southwest runway 

Time collides 

Shipments that never came 

I drank enough 

To almost feel at home right here 

Breaking rules and breaking down 

But not enough to make me disappear 

Pushing drugs and skipping town 

Never thought twice about it 

I dropped the ball, we lost our only chance to have luck on our side 

What if we never even make it back? I don't have the answer 

Now we just talk about it 

Face offs that never came 

Revolving doors 

Kept the neighbors up and talking 

I thought a lot 

Unsettled scores 

And after this how could I face my friends 

This is not a life I can defend 

Seconds burned 

Throat dry I swallowed my pride and.. 

Fuck it all 

I looked hard and I'm to blame 

Lesson learned 

A part of me three years I've had to hideRepressing thoughts of suicide