Vaporub Lyrics - Bob Mould

Kept my heart locked away 

I kept it far away from me 

Found a place down by the river where nobody goes 

Buried far beneath the levee 

Places where I used to go 

When it rained, my heart went deeper so 

Deep blue underneath the sea 

Washed away for no one to see me 

I don't have the feelings I'm supposed to know 

And I don't get the feeling that you understand 

Only get the feeling that you're feeling sorry for me 

That's never been the point of what I've said 

Never really knew what love was 

Mixed it up with other thoughts 

And growing up alone doesn't help one sort it out 

Even when you're here, you're not no 

Never learned to trust another person 

Never knew a person who understand my words 

Why I chose to share them, I will never know, but knowing 

No one took the time to understand me 

Do I want forgiveness or the thrill of maybe knowing 

I could change direction, never caring where I'm going 

Sometimes all the time it takes to make your destination 

Isn't charted out as clearly as it seems 

Now the smell of vaporub comes over me 

And all the shame of weakness builds again 

Rules and expectations I can't follow any more 

I became the person that I am 

Wouldn't want to make you think 

You haven't found a way to me 

It's only that it's not 

As simple as it seems to be