Light Of Some Kind Lyrics - Not A Pretty Girl - Ani Difranco

i wish i didn't have this nervous laugh 

i wish i didn't say half the stuff i say 

i wish i could just learn to cover my tracks 

i guess i'm not concerned about getting away 

'cause every time i try to hold my tongue 

it slips like a fish from a line 

they say if you want to play 

you should learn how to play dumb 

i guess i can't bring myself to waste your time 

'cause we both know what i've been doing 

i've been intentionally bad at lying 

you're the only boy i ever let see through me 

and i hope you believe me when i say i'm trying 

and i hope i never improve my game 

yeah i'd rather have these things weighing on my mind 

and at the end of this tunnel of guilt and shame 

there must be a light of some kind 

there must be a light of some kind 

i must have blown a fuse or something 

cause it was so dark in my mind 

she came up to me with the sweetest face 

and she was holding a light of some kind 

and i still think of you as my boyfriend 

i don't think this is the end of the world 

but i think maybe you should follow my example 

and go meet yourself a really nice girl 

'cause we both know. . . 

in the end the world comes down to just a few people 

but for you it comes down to one 

but no one ever asked me if i thought i could be 

everything to someone 

there's a crowd of people harbored in every person 

there are so many roles that we play 

and you've decided to love me for eternity 

i'm still deciding who i want to be today 

cause we both know. . .