Rock Paper Scissors Lyrics - So Much Shouting, So Much Laughing (live) - Ani Difranco

it's rock paper scissors as to whether 

i will get over you at all 

it's hand against hand and both hands are mine 

it's standing in a circular line 

which is not to say that i'm not also happy 

a happy meal with a surprise inside 

surprise surprise here's another bright light in your eyes 

exposing all the stuff you're not calculating enough to hide 

this melancholy that i carry makes me feel so grown up 

at my kitchen table doing shots of resignation 

i never thought i'd see the day when i would say i give up 

and break the stallions of my wildest expectations 

i do not want to know you this way 

surrounded by so much pain 

but how am i supposed to let go of you this way 

like a bird into the sky of my brain? 

i think i could accept all these dark colors 

as just part of some bigger color scheme 

if it wasn't for that drippy string quartet of sadness 

underscoring each smiling scene 

desire drags me right out of myself 

a gas-soaked rope tied to a piece of coal 

and i'm getting pretty good at looking at the bright side 

while the flames rip along the sand and swallow me whole