Jukebox Lyrics - Up Up Up Up Up Up - Ani Difranco

In the jukebox of her memory 

The list of names flips by and stops 

She closes her eyes 

And smiles as the record drops 

Then she drinks herself up and out 

Of her kitchen chair and she dances out of time 

As slow as she can sway for as long as she can say 

This dance is mine, this dance is mine 

Her hair bears silent witness 

To the passing of time 

Tattoos like mile markers 

Map the distance she has gone 

Winning some, losing some, she says 

My sister still calls every Sunday night 

After the rates go down and I can 

Never manage to say anything right 

My whole life blew up 

And now it's all coming down 

And she says leave me alone 

Tonight I just wanna stay home 

She fills the pot with water 

She drops in the bone 

She says, I've got a darkness 

That I have to feed, I've got a sadness 

That grows up around me like a weed 

And I'm not hurting anyone 

I'm just spiraling in 

As she closes her eyes 

And hears the song begin again 

She appreciates the phone calls 

The consoling cards and such 

She appreciates all the people 

Who come by and try to pull her back in touch 

They try to hold the lid down tightly 

And they try to shake well 

But the oil and water 

Just want to separate themselves 

She drinks herself up and out of her 

Kitchen chair and she dances out of time 

As slow as she can sway for as long as she can say 

This dance is mine, this dance is mine 

This dance is mine