Schizophrenia (mental Suicide) Lyrics - Alastis

I think of death as if it's near 

Plan my future as if it's doesn't exist 

I'd like to die without having lived 

Disappear without regret nor joy 

Death is perhaps a delivery 

Nobody's never managed to prove it 

I'd like to have no future 

Kill without remorse even friends 

Be an animal without faith nor law 

Mad, I begin to be mad 

I feel my nerves that are cracking 

I want to weep and to laugh 

An interior force pushes me to suicide 

An other one pushes me to folly 

I think of death as if it's near 

Project my future as if it doesn't exist...