Won't kiss the mouth that mocks the pain that's inflicted. Thought that I could trust but I was tricked instead. Won't embrace the one who burdens me until I snap.
The scythe, the hourglass. He hold us in his grasp. So I can't rush in haste. . When I wait it changes everything. Sometimes it all just falls apart. Sometimes it turns to what I want.
Consequences if I do. Consequences if I don't. Maybe I should roll the dice. What's the difference anyway?. . No matter which of the path I choose. It feels like I am damned to lose.
Glasseating smile stretched to my mouth. Have to learn to accept all the pain. It never matters how hard that I struggle. All my efforts seem in vain.
Down in flames, it all falls. Everything that I fought for. Proceed with abandon. What's inside is all that's left. . The reward for my sacrifice. It's scorn and a fist full of crumbs.
Let there be lust if there's no love to feel. Let there be war if there's no peace that's real. All sentiment drains from my consciousness. The agony boils through my veins.
Wounds decay inside my soul. Pain harsher than any that I've known. Realized it simply is what it is. There's just no way to win. . This is what it is to yearn.
Hard to see when everybody seems to have their someone. Hard for me to be alone among them. It makes me want for it to be the way it was. She lets me starve outside her door.
This misery that holds me under. Won't let me get away. One day you'll see this could be perfect. So I'll hold on. . What?. Can feel it waking up inside of me now.