Suicide Letters Lyrics - Anghellic Reparation - Tech N9ne

"This is a piece that I wrote, when I was on some 

Low down, down low feelin' depressed shit 

You know what I'm sayin' 

It contains three suicide letters to my peeps 

Oh, actually two suicide letters, you know what I'm sayin' 

I wrote it in a rhyme form but I'm tryin' to read it 

To the best of my abilities, you know what I'm sayin' 

So bear with me, listen to the lyrics, check it out" 

Picture me in a casket blasted 

Never nobody knew how long the pain lasted 

Keep my eyes tight, I'm frightened but I fights like Tyson 

When playin' this game of life, I'm losin' 

Longin' to be enlightened 

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Absorb my mind state, reduce the crime rate 

And take me out, when runnin' toward the Lord 

I see 'em fake me out shook me 

So from church I play hookie 

Listen to the words of a brother 

The sick stutters so you better, better 

Get the get the bags ready 

Comes a killer, killer like Skagnetti 

My brains contaminated, hella rotten 

Wasn't me that killed you, who was it? What was it? 

The effects of the mildew, my brain's wilted 

In my eyes the world is a bit tilted 

Lord, take me away before somebody else gets killed 

Blood spilled, seriously 

This is the letter to my homies, I'll be missin' 

God told me to behold a pale horse but I didn't listen 

It's hard man, my life is scarred man 

I'm losin' my mind so now it's time, sincerely sign N9NE 

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(I just wanna die) 

I don't wanna wake up 

I don't wanna 'cuz 

That's the way that I feel 

I'm barely hangin' on 

(I just wanna die) 

I don't wanna wake up 

I don't wanna 'cuz 

That's the way it has to be 

(I just wanna die) 

I don't wanna wake up 

I don't wanna 'cuz 

That's the way that I feel 

I'm barely hangin' on 

(I just wanna die) 

I don't wanna wake up 

I don't wanna 'cuz 

That's the way it has to be 

I made your life a livin' Hell with my infidelity 

Remember your tellin' me all I give a damn about 

Is weed stems and melodies 

Remember you spent 30 minutes in the hospital parkin' lot cryin' 

When the blood test read the baby of another woman was mine 99.99 

You should've left a long time ago like Mary J say 

Just let it go like Ray J, can't 

I know your mamma heard you yelling mayday 

Spent my life tryin' to RA to the P 

You sick of me always bein' B to the ROK to the E 

Now there's nothin' else left of me 

I was a bum but you still wanted some 

Through the rain, snow and thunder 

Foul ups, bleeps and blunders but no man shall tear asunder 

Is what you said 

You should've put multi bullets in my head 

When you found that evil instinct was a song 

Where the events actually went on 

This is the letter to my homie, my friend 

Who put up with me for 8 so now to take me 

Really quickly is my fate, I'm sorry 

For making it hard, I know your scarred 

I'm losing my mind, so now it's time sincerely sign, N9ne 

(I just wanna die) 

I don't wanna wake up 

I don't wanna 'cuz 

That's the way that I feel 

I'm barely hangin' on 

(I just wanna die) 

I don't wanna wake up 

I don't wanna 'cuz 

That's the way it has to be 

(I just wanna die) 

I don't wanna wake up 

I don't wanna 'cuz 

That's the way that I feel 

I'm barely hangin' on 

(I just wanna die) 

I don't wanna wake up 

I don't wanna 'cuz 

That's the way it has to be 

I love ya'll, the dynamic duo, my babies 

It ain't your fault that your daddy's crazy 

Donny, I miss your drummin' like me 

One day you'll be rulin' 

Leelee, I miss you in my face 

Yellin', "Daddy, what you doin'?" 

You two are the reason why I'm still standin' today 

But I'm 1600 miles away and you get my heart sinkin' 

When I start thinkin' about you babies, I heavily start drinkin' 

On a daily puffin', I'm seeing my heart, I gots to toughin' 

Can't see me leavin' my angels with nothin' so I keep bussin' 

Use my pain for you two, I've gotta come up in the game 

Fly palne to an island so one day you can do the same with yours 

Love you galore and I ain't playin' makin' me put an end 

To this suicidal mind state sayin' 

(I just wanna die) 

I don't wanna wake up 

I don't wanna 'cuz 

That's the way that I feel 

I'm barely hangin' on 

I don't wanna wake up 

I don't wanna 'cuz 

That's the way it has to be 

I don't wanna wake up 

I don't wanna 'cuz 

That's the way that I feel 

I'm barely hangin' on 

I don't wanna wake up 

I don't wanna 'cuz 

That's the way it has to be 

So we're just gonna sit back 

Write these rhymes, make these bills 

Chill, no more, Tech N9ne