Everything I Am Lyrics - Singles - Tarik

People tell me keep my head up it'll be okay 

and I just smile because there's nothing left for me to say 

meanwhile I'm really wishing that they'd keep away 

cause no one truly understands the problems I hide deep away 

they're playing checkers, my mind is thinking chess moves 

I'm tryna' pause time so I can think about my next move 

not only that I'm also thinking 'bout my next two 

while also being sidetracked by these pretty girls I'm next to 

if she really knew the weight of all my problems 

would she still be staring at me as if she could help me solve em'? 

I swear I'm losing it, I'm caught up in my thoughts 

it's like they show you how to get through life but still I end up lost 

and everything attained in life don't come without a cost 

so our emotions pay for every single lesson we are taught 

tryna' keep a smile in the midst of all my pain 

is like tryna' stay dry in the midst of all the rain 

I'm hoping I'm the only thing that still remains the same 

so my friends won't say I changed in the midst of all the fame 

but no one knows what tomorrow holds so whos to say? 

so I'm thinking 'bout tomorrow when I lose track of today 

once I make it through this mess, Imma be the one to blame 

cause I did it on my own with little help along the way 

this mixtape is my book but I didn't put in every page 

cause I didn't wanna talk about things like H.R.A. 

so I didn't tell ya'll that my family got evicted 

or that I completely ruined my relationship with my sisters 

if I could speak to them I'd tell them that I miss em' 

and say sorry that I didn't even send a gift on christmas 

it's like, I just wonder how I got here 

and how I'm 'posed to fly when my whole world drops here 

but just when I thought the storm was over.. 

some close ones passed away, another burden on my shoulder 

it's always ones that you ain't call as much as you was 'posed to 

yet you could find time to text people you ain't close to 

damn, so I'm feeling type ashamed 

while half the family's only hoping that the family's getting paid 

and things ain't quite merry when you can't afford christmas 

yet people asking me why I'm not smiling in my pictures 

if money talks then I'm tryna sit and listen 

but if money says it all then my pocket just whispers 

cause even with financial aid I can't afford college 

but a bachelor's can't teach you how to get through life's problems 

so I ain't even stressing that I can't afford knowledge 

it just means I'll find another stage and learn how to rock it 

my dreams walk ahead of me, I am just the shadow 

either they are out of reach or I am just a tad slow 

I'm a bad performer or my life is just a bad show 

atleast I get this weekly child support from my dad though 

how come, life dont listen when I ask first? 

and even when I drive slow, I can't avoid them fast girls? 

I was voted class clown and class nerd 

I hope my songs are good enough for fans to hear the last verse 

pictures in my mind but I can't really describe them 

pills that I could take but the doctor didn't prescribe them 

problems tend to find me so I'm just tryna' hide them 

my dreams try to log out so I keep my focus signed in 

music is my life and every bar is a tear 

I just hope the bass bumps loud enough to silence all my fears 

I've been through hell and back and only lived 20 years 

I've got 80 more left so that explains why I'm scared 

my life is a movie but I wish I had two takes 

so I could film from scratch with a new life and a new name 

it's like, I just need to find a new place 

where roaches don't walk by me as if they were freaking roomates 

I set up dates with girls that I eventually postpone 

cause I either got no money or I'm running out of clothes 

so now she disappointed or she's crying back at home 

but little does she know that I've been crying all along 

and I should tell the truth because I know she'd understand 

but it hurts to say I'm broke so I pretend that I got plans 

but I'm just home hoping that she'll find a better man 

that can take her out to dinner and put diamonds on her hand 

everybody got problems, why complain about mine? 

I'll just put them in a song and then I'll make it all rhyme 

I'm trying not to rush cause I know things come in time 

I'm just waiting for the whole world to be mine 

when you try hard, you die hard, yea I hear you yeezy 

but I'm going hard regardless 'cause since when is dying easy 

so tell me do ya'll feel me? 

nah, ya'll can't hear me...