Telling You Lyrics - Big Blue Sky - Shawn Mullins

If I take this opportunity to tell you what happened, 

Will it destroy our unity? 

Will there be nothing left to tap into? 

I hate to lay this on you, but I've been holding back these tears. 

This morning I awakened from a dream so real 

It's in my memory and has been for fifteen years, 

And I don't mind if you have to tell someone -- 

I had to tell someone. 

That's why I'm telling you. 

Times were different then, and I was very young, 

But I'm older now. 

I'm angry now. 

I don't know what to do. 

I never thought I'd hate him, 

But I've got to tell you brother, 

My childhood has been taken. 

I know now I was the other lover, 

And I fought him the best way I could. 

I got the hell out of there but it still cuts me like cold steel, 

And I split like wood. 

Sometimes I wonder if he knows or cares. 

And it's alright if you have to tell someone -- 

I had to tell someone. 

That's why I'm telling you. 

Times were different then, and I was very young, 

But I'm older now. 

I'm angry now. 

I don't know what to do, he thinks it all surrounds him. 

That's just the way it is, don't want my kids around him. 

But I can tell you this -- I don't expect you to feel the way I feel, 

But I didn't know what else to do. 

They say these things take time to heal. 

I can start by telling you, 

I can start by telling you, 

I can start by telling you.