State Of Mine Lyrics - Defend Yourself - Sebadoh

They've got the calves of champions 

They greet the warmest way 

They are the dads, the main ones 

They've got some money saved 

(yea, I'm sorry but I don't) 

Another kind of classroom 

Another shade of fear 

Another door you're shoved through 

Until you conquer your fear 

(And I wonder if I won't) 

To let the children go 

To feel themselves to hurt and grow 

It's the hardest thing i I've done 

And I haven't even done it yet 

Thought I was wise, averted my eyes 

Avoided the light, went head down thru it 

But I was wrong I've gotta be strong 

And hold my head up high 

Failure is a state of mine 

Back in Massachusetts 

In my familiar role 

Afraid to make decisions 

But had to test my soul 

The girl wanted to live here 

And I follow my love 

Came to California 

Enough was never enough 

(Yea, I know, I know, I know)