El Greco Lyrics - Courage - Paula Cole

I'm black on blacker velvet, milk skin and veins 

Like some El Greco painting, so full of pain 

So full of longing for light of day 

I thought I knew who I was in the world 

But here I am twice blind at being born 

Crawling to my buried voice within 

And I've forgotten who I used to be 

And I've forgotten the woman in red, living her dream 

And I've forgotten the courage I used to be 

Happiness is overrated, it never lasts 

Skating the surface of oceanic depths 

Oh, may the fruit of my life be meaning 

So please forgive me all my seriousness 

My so-called spirituality, I'm just a mess 

I'm tears and anxiety but I'm unafraid to see 

And I've forgotten who I used to be 

The leader in her glory shining, divining 

And I've forgotten the courage I used to be 

The middle passage is so damn tumbling, persona crumbling 

Don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know 

I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know 

And I try, and I try, and I try, and I try 

And I try, and I try, and I try 

I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know 

I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know 

And I try, and I try, and I try, and I try 

And I try 

Like some El Greco painting, no sun or sky 

No lantern, no candle needed to light 

The holy radiance behind the eyes 

And I've forgotten who I used to be 

And I've forgotten that woman in red, living her dream 

And I've forgotten the courage I used to be 

I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know 

I don't know, I don't know, I don't know 

And I try, and I try, and I try, and I try 

And I try, and I try, and I try 

I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know 

I don't know, I don't know, I don't know 

And I try, and I try, and I try