Idioglossia Lyrics - Pain Of Salvation

It all comes back to me 

Face to the floor 

Heart in my mouth 

My forehead hits the pavement 

Again, numb, again 

Sharing this humility 

A circle of humanity 

Momentarily black in me 

Immomentarily black 

So black 

Memory leave me be 

Close that eye leave love blind 

When outcome is preceded 

By an outlet that is needed 

We forget all but the circle 

As soon as the ends have met 

As soon as the ends have met 

I scratch the surface and see 

Someone better than me 

Where did I suffer that loss? 

What was taken from me? 

As I search through the ashes 

For someone to blame 

I'm afraid to see my face 

As I walk through the ashes 

I whisper your name 

Meeting you have forced me 

To meet myself 

This blood proves me right 

In that the last move is all that 

Counts if the beasts must bite 

Vow to the floor 

Oath to the taste of dust 

In my mouth - never! 

I bite the words - never again! 

Will I let anyone else finish 

I'll be the end of every way 

Memory let it die left behind 

Leave me blind 

Despite all these words 

Not one could express 

What I had inside 

Living was to hide 

Kneeling in whirlpools 

Of pink champagne 

Celebrating the bravery of my pain 

Something broke 

And no water could ever wash 

The anger from that first stain 

I scratched the surface to find 

Someone wicked and blind 

Where did it come to that end? 

Why can't these scars ever mend? 

Memories... 

I have swallowed all these tears 

Thought they'd be gone 

After all these years 

Now this heart is waking up 

With a new hunger 

For my own blood 

As I search through the ashes 

For someone to blame 

I'm afraid to see my face 

As I walk through the ashes 

I whisper your name 

Meeting you have forced me 

To meet myself 

Face to the ground 

Heart in their mouth Foreheads hit the pavement 

Again - numb - again 

Sharing my hostility 

A streetful of insanity 

This is payback for every 

Tear in me, hole in me 

Black in me - black! 

Memory history agony 

Let me see that hideous 

Idioglossia that formed me 

Despite all these words 

Not one could express 

What I had inside 

Living was to hide 

For every time you froze me out 

For every punch every shout 

For not believing in me 

For your stupidity 

For stealing what could have been 

Me 

It all comes back to you 

Is this all I am?