Is This The End? (part Two) Lyrics - P. Diddy

Momma told me one day it was gonna happen 

But she never told me when 

She told me it would happen when I was much older 

Wish it would've happened then 

(Is this the end?) 

Momma told me one day it was gonna happen 

But she never told me when 

She told me it would happen when I was much older 

Wish it would've happened then 

(Is this the end?) 

Sometimes I be wakin' up at high noon 

Sayin, "Why me, Lord?", folks thinkin' I'ma die soon 

I just tell 'em keep seekin' but when they sleepin' 

I be concealed up in my room, knowin' that it could happen 

I'm just tryin' to maintain because the future is untold 

Till the static unfolds that the good die young 

Please, God, let a bad boy die old 

Do you think I wanna lie cold 

Or better yet have many shots come close to the head? 

Shirt soaked till it's red 

The most that was said was that my homies had a toast to the dead 

Do I need a pack a vest for stress so I can rest 

'Cause even though I'm blessed in my flesh 

It all came down to a test 

A motherfucker wanna go and put a tattoo on my chest 

Now I'm caught up in the mix and I can't do shit 

But still I can't ride with program, fearing no man 

Hit the car door, let the door slam 

It's a blessing that he had slow hands 

But he's still right behind me 

All these heartless fools is steady comin' after my P 

So many phony niggaz lovin' to hate Sean 

So many cheddar niggaz comin' after my cheese 

Is it my car that they're losin', are we all for the choosin'? 

Or is it all in confusion? Better yet all an illusion 

Shots rang through the hall bullets cruisin' for bruisin' 

Don't let this heartless bastard take my life away 

I don't wanna conceive takin' his either 

Dipped into the back and took a breather 

Heard steps steady in closin' with the bullet skeezer 

Gotta do somethin', I ain't scared to go 

But yet my heart is steady pumpin' for somethin' 

I refuse to be the one that they be dumpin' 

Gotta get away before the techs start gunnin' 

Bodies start jumpin' 

Wreckin' my brain not to try and understand 

But withstand, is it 'cause I'm a rich man 

Or just to try to put a brother down in the dirt like quicksand 

But no matter what the reason, I don't wanna stop breathin' 

There's dreams to fulfill still 

Can't complete em with a still kill 

Face to face with enemies still grill 

Forgive me for the pain I've caused and the sins I've committed 

Even though I'm not hopin' to go, I wish someone would open the do' 

This man's holding the trigger and his finger's steady choking it slow 

Is this the end? 

Momma told me one day it was gonna happen 

But she never told me when 

She told me it would happen when I was much older 

Wish it would've happened then 

(Is this the end?) 

Just can't let go 

(Is this the end?) 

I, just, don't, know 

Wish it would've happened then 

Did I just hear a tight jam 

How it's on let make my maneuver 

Hit the alley saw a man in a Land Cruiser 

In his hand was a Ruger, dipped in a Lex like Luger 

Heard shots from a steel bruiser 

Teflon in the seat took a pale stress 

Felt the hate on my chest as I placed on my vest 

What's wrong with the brakes in the LX? 

Ran straight into a lightpole, just before I got my life stole 

A car came to the rescue, I bailed in and said, "Bless you 

But what made me the man you would wanna show help to?" 

I proceeded to ask him and he said with a passion 

I could never watch a soul die, plus you the man lookin' too fly 

(But who are you?) 

The pimp nigga named Twista from the cold Chi 

When the sun's, shy gotta keep one eye, nigga 

I been shot at and stole on 

No protection from one time, only caught for my prime 

So I asked the Father what I did so wrong? 

'Cause shit, it's been hard for me besides chief 

And the smell of sweet news when the beef brew 

Motherfuckers steady ballin' but steady fallin' 

Right in detours, 'bout to hit my feet soon 

So I just presume 

Deep into the rhymes of a rapper 

Prepare my mind for the capture, thinkin' Ginuwine like the bachelor 

But why these niggaz wanna make us into crime with the rapture? 

Ego for dispersin' us, don't even hurt the clutch 

'Cause he's coldblooded and merciless 

Steady bustin' shots at both of us, was the strap close to us 

Then for survival we both to bust 

But Renaults get to roast to crush, 'cause he steady gettin' closer 

Paranoid like a crackfiend when the gat seen 

Scream when the bullet hit me in the shoulder 

Don't wanna die till I get older 

Try to visualize the beholder, he's inconceivable 

So now my sight is gettin' dark a lot 

Best to step off in this parking lot where them dogs bark a lot 

And try to wait until his ma get hot 

I can make a person fight to survive whether good or connivin' 

You never know when it's your time to leave 

Smokin' weed to keep my mind at ease 

Let's go back to the car but wait, I can't find the keys 

Plus we didn't chill long enough 

The footsteps are comin' close 

Is it one of them unholy men? With a strap ready to boldly sin 

Mama told me it was comin' but I wish she woulda told me when 

Is this the end? 

Momma told me one day it was gonna happen 

But she never told me when 

She told me it would happen when I was much older 

Wish it would've happened then 

(Is this the end?) 

Momma told me one day it was gonna happen 

But she never told me when 

She told me it would happen when I was much older 

Wish it would've happened then 

(Is this the end?) 

Just can't let go