Rain Drops Lyrics - Novel

[Chorus] 

Tear drops in the pillow on my bed 

Still trying to keep my head up 

Know you'd rather see me dead 

And the raindrops keep on falling 

I said they keep on falling 

And they keep on falling 

I said they keep on falling 

(Slaughterhouse yo) 

I'm the product of when a nigga's mama gives up 

Crying lying in the trash with the lid shut 

Ain't got no family my mind is tender my 

Daddy's invisible my Mom's is Brenda uh 

If I survive I'm grow into what 

Society considers trash the rope is to us 

That means I'm hanging myself by living 

The noose is getting murdered that or going to prison 

My minds controlled before I learned mind control 

What you call living life I call dying slow 

I'm genetically predisposed 

The reaper the only thing that can ease my soul freezing cold 

Feeling like I was given life and if I take it at least I choose 

I'll probably be in heaven when the pain stops 

Til then all I'm hearing is wind and rain drops 

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(Cause this is my pain) 

Dear auntie I still feel your timeless sorrow 

Before you died it's like your body was mine to borrow 

Like I jumped in your physical shell 

While you was going through miserable hell saying goodbye to tomorrow 

Everyday it make me sad, angry, mad how you were sent to heaven sacred path 

Duct taped and gagged plus raped and stabbed body draped in blood what a faith to have 

Such a pitiful end I'm popping Ritalin like they skittles cause 

When I sleep I can feel it again and again and again it's difficult 

Killing is the wickedest biblical sin I'm talking about momma's identical twin 

I see your face when I look at her 

Her reminder of how I've been in the cold 

Since 14 years old 

Swear to God I'll probably be in heaven when the pain stops 

Til then all I'm hearing is wind and raindrops. (Rest in peace Chacha) 

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Nah I ain't move bricks on the peter pan 

No father around to teach me how to be a man 

We was too high didn't know when we would land 

Scraping coke on the weed til' niggas didn't see a plant 

Alcoholic's child raise off of sugar water 

Headed to you and just thought about how good he was brought up 

Coulda woulda outta one track mind 

They say man of many hats buys a hooker for a quarter 

And now I'm writing a book and the hoods the author 

Called the "Obvious Poker Face The Look of Torture" 

Teach you how to climb your way out that ditch then 

Me all I need is this pen and thick skin 

Being so bright could mean you lit then 

Cause you start trying to figure out a figment 

I'll probably be in heaven when the pain stops 

Til then all I hear is wind and rain drops 

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(Check it out) 

I'm still waiting on my did to get back 

He went to the store in 84 and I ain't seen him after that 

Another single mom public assisted the rent wasn't consistent 

So they had us back and forth to court in the months of the blizzard (Freezing) 

My sneakers leaned the rubber was missing 

No one on ones they always jumped me no brothers and sisters to hold me down 

Along with headphones plugged into a cheap Walkman that ate tapes 

Gun shots and me sleep walking I hate weights 

A whole lot of crying police chalking that fate tape 

Ambulance never on time they like a day late 

My cousin ain't had to vacate my best friend since age eight 

Sometimes I can't hold them I kid you not 

Eyes get swollen holding on that tissue box 

Somebody get a mop 

I'll probably be in heaven when the pain stops 

Til then all I'm hearing is wind and raindrops 

[Chorus] 

And the raindrops keep on falling 

Yeah yeah yeah