Terror Lyrics - My Ruin

Terror 

This is what you call me 

I strike terror among men 

I can't be bothered by what they think 

I bare my cross, my soul, myself 

I forgive but I never forget 

I've been put upon this Earth in female form 

But I can handle myself with the best of you 

As well as the worst and I often have 

I have the right to remain silent 

But I choose to speak, sing, scream 

I am lips, hips, tits 

I am the power of a woman 

Strong like music, true like friendship 

But without my friends 

There would be no music only spoken word 

Fucker 

Fucker 

I am able to change 

So I live without regret 

Without remorse 

Only a remix 

I am drunk, I am sober 

Heaven doesn't want me 

And hell's afraid I'll take over 

Don't bother trying to censor me 

Or shut me up 

Because it won't work 

I am cold and distant yet warm and close 

To those who deserve to see that side of me 

Part of me, the heart of me 

You find me so hard to understand in your world 

The world you perceive to be so normal 

I am deformed, scorned, reborn, I am me 

And I know exactly who I am, what I am 

And the wrath I bring 

The ugly beauty, the lying truth 

The virgin whore, the quiet storm 

A lover, a fighter, a saint, a sinner 

A sister, a daughter, old school a beginner 

I have decorated myself with love 

Hate, truth, you 

All of you, both of you 

None of you 

More than one of you 

Fucker 

Fucker 

With lips like sugar, eyes like meat 

I've watched men come, go and cheat 

I sleep to dream and dream of sleep 

I had a dream Joe 

That you were standing in the middle of an open grove 

I had a dream Joe 

That your hands were raised up to the sky 

And your mouth was covered in foam 

I've been crucified, justified 

And mortified by my behavior 

Both feminine and masculine 

I am a contradiction and juxtaposition 

My relief is my release 

And only time will tell 

All's well that ends well 

I am unsweetened, unclean 

Been called drama queen 

Ex girlfriend, ex member 

The tantrum, the temper 

I point my finger, take the blame 

And this time I will own the name 

Because no one is going to ruin me 

If I have to, I will ruin myself 

And it will be my ruin 

Fucker 

Fucker 

Fucker 

Fucker 

Fucker