Horrible Pain (within My Heart) Lyrics - My Ruin

I invoke him and he comes to me 

In my dreams dressed in black 

He speaks in a language only I can understand 

His hands are warm, his breath is hot 

He is the horrible pain, within my heart 

My religion, my sanctuary, my church 

My sacrifice, my confession 

My exorcism, my worship in progress 

I have no other lover now, until forever 

He is magic and when he kisses me 

I can taste him on my lips like an elixir 

Far from innocent, he is pure evil 

A sinners prayer, a saints desire 

For him, I would walk through fire 

For him I have walked through fire 

To draw him, I want so bad 

One gift, I'll never have 

He drives a stake into my soul 

Makes me bleed, makes me whole 

Drinks me, devours me, intoxicates me 

With his love, hate, devotion and faith 

As beautiful as Jesus Christ 

He is as brutal, as the depths of hell 

In my dreams, I press my mouth against his 

And I feel heaven, horror, terror 

He looks at me with that look 

I call it his serial killer look 

Like he wants to fuck me 

And kill me all at the same time 

It scares me, it turns me on 

His eyes are brown 

His stare is intense meaningful, powerful 

Maybe that's why he's so fuckin' scary 

Because he means it 

Sometimes he tells me, he loves me 

As he looks at me with that look 

Sometimes he doesn't have to 

I've never felt a man look at me like this 

It's almost creepy , uncomfortable, sexy 

I guess I know he could never 

Really chop off my hands 

Or could He?