Now Only Lyrics - Mount Eerie

I remember looking around a hospital waiting room 

Full of people all absorbed in their own personal catastrophes 

All reading books like "Being Mortal," all with a look in their eyes 

And I remember feeling like, "No, no one can understand," 

"No, my devastation is unique." 

But people get cancer and die 

People get hit by trucks and die 

People just living their lives 

Get erased for no reason with the rest of us watching from the side 

And some people have to survive 

And find a way to feel lucky to still be alive 

To sleep through the night 

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I wrote down all the details of how my house fell apart 

How the person I loved got killed by a bad disease 

Out of nowhere for no reason and me living in the blast zone 

With our daughter and etcetera I made these songs 

And the next thing I knew I was standing in the dirt 

Under the desert sky at night outside Phoenix 

At a music festival that had paid to fly me in 

To play death songs to a bunch of young people on drugs 

Standing in the dust next to an idling bus 

With Skrillex inside and the sound of subwoofers in the distance 

I had stayed up til three talking to Weyes Blood and Father John Misty 

About songwriting in the backstage bungalows 

Eating fruit and jumping on the bed like lost children 

Exploding across the earth in a self-indulgent all-consuming 

Wreck of ideas that blot out the stars 

To be still alive felt so absurd 

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People get cancer and die 

People get hit by trucks and die 

People just living their lives get erased for no reason 

With the rest of us averting our eyes 

When I was leaning on Skrillex's tour bus 

waiting for the hotel shuttle in the middle of the night 

I barely knew who I was 

I looked up and saw Orion wielding a club and a shield 

And there you were again: 

Majestic dead wife 

As my grief becomes calcified, frozen in stories 

And in these songs I keep singing, numbing it down 

The unsingable real memories of you 

And the feral eruptions of sobbing 

These waves hit less frequently 

They thin and then they are gone 

You are gone and then your echo is gone 

And the crying is gone 

And what is left of this merchandise? 

This is what my life feels like now 

Like I got abruptly dropped off by the side of the road 

In the middle of a long horrible ride 

In a hot van that was too full of confident chattering dudes 

And the sound of tires receding 

Taking in the night air I say 

"Now only."