Even If It Kills Me Lyrics - Motion City Soundtrack

Ive got a lotta things to do tonight 

Im so sick of making lists of things Ill never finish 

Ive lived here for the last twelve years 

Since early 1995 all my shit has been in boxes 

But if I had a little more time to kill 

Id settle every little stupid thing 

Yeah, youd think that I would 

But Im too tired to go to sleep tonight 

And Im too weak to follow dreams tonight 

For the first time in a long time I can say 

That I wanna try 

To get better and overcome each moment 

In my own way 

I wonder if Ill ever lose my mind 

I tried hard for a while but then I kinda gave up 

Winter is a killer when the sun goes down 

Im really not as stubborn as I seem 

Said the knuckle to the concrete 

But Im too tired to go to sleep tonight 

And Im too weak to follow dreams tonight 

For the first time in a long time I can say 

That I wanna try 

To get better and overcome each moment 

In my own way 

Im not saying that Im giving up 

Im just trying not to think as much as I used to 

Cause never is a lonely little messed up word 

Maybe Ill get it right some day 

For the first time in a long time I can say 

That I wanna try 

I feel helpless for the most part 

But Im learning to open my eyes 

And the sad truth of the matter is Ill never get over it 

But Im gonna try 

To get better and overcome each moment 

In my own way 

I so wanna get back on track 

And Ill do whatever it takes 

Even if it kills me