What If... Lyrics - Holy Ghost [explicit] - Modern Baseball

When I was younger 

I thought of caring 

As a reason for some to praise me, in envy 

"So humble and kind" 

"No better person" 

Now that I'm older I've seen what I've been 

Ruthless, ungrateful, always trying to turn up tracks 

Be it about me or you 

Seeking out the faithful in me 

With tricks of trust and gluttony 

I don't wanna wait for anyone 

When I was younger I thought of deep space 

Pick me up swiftly, carry me away 

Drop me off willing, light-years long gone 

Never again seeing those who I loved 

It's not about me this time, there I go lying again 

Please save my soul 

I don't know what I'm doing anymore 

Seeking out the faithful in me with singles and a pen 

Is it possible I'm overthinking this? 

It's not what I'm not, it's what I believe in 

It's not what I've got, it's my peace of mind 

Too early to see if I'm still in the past 

Too hopeful to be wasted time 

It's not what I'm not, it's what I believe in 

It's not what I've got, it's my peace of mind 

Too early to see if I'll be