Hardest Song Ever Lyrics - Singles - Locksmith

Father worked nights, mother all day 

There were no gripes, we would all pray 

We were close knit, it was so strict 

Well in most folks, that was OK 

I was so young, pre-first grade 

Them condone me alone, it was no way 

But when it overlapped, it left an open gap 

Call a babysitter, time to go play 

And she was young too, and it was fun too 

Get away from her home, so she would come through 

Our to a neighbors house, they had the favorite couch 

That everybody loved, and we would run to 

But it was uncool, what we would succumb to 

The shit we did see, becoming numb to 

This wasn't untrue, what no-one knew 

The shit that she would do to me, nothing else could undo 

Young and unaware, dealing with the strain 

There's no reason to lie, cause there's nothing to gain 

She told me "strip down, no need to feel ashamed' 

She brought another child, she said "let's play a game." 

My stomach's in a twist, what you expect shit 

I'm barely 5 or 6, I don't know what sex is 

I'm giving y'all the truth so I can set it right 

This is the hardest song I had to ever write 

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All that lays, locked in me 

Wasn't mine to hold on to (The hardest song I could ever write) 

And though it plagues, a part of me 

Don't want to leave but I got to (The hardest song I could ever write) 

And the memory I suppressed it, depression is what's 

Pressing that's what the stress did 

I pushed away any woman I could connect with 

That's the shit you do when you deal with being molested 

Infested with impatience I started aching 

Hatred and deep guilt was the deadliest combination 

Am I scarred, am I flawed, am I gay then? 

I've always loved women, that can't be the explanation 

How do I take the rage, bury it deep inside 

Cover it with a smile, but eventually it will rise 

Eventually it will tie, a knot in your soul and boast 

Then you just end up hurting the people you love the most 

Fuck it I'll let it fly, nothing to set aside 

It's nothing for me to lose, I'm already dead inside 

Already said my peace a piece of me fled in spite 

Let's set it right this the hardest shit I'm a ever write 

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All that lays, locked in me 

Wasn't mine to hold on to (The hardest song I could ever write) 

And though it plagues, a part of me 

Don't want to leave but I got to (The hardest song I could ever write) 

We are the victim of school teachers and cool preachers 

Youth coaches and catholic priest that do breach us 

And violated our innocence from within 

Now that I'm grown I know that it prolly happened to them 

A cycle of sickness where the only eyewitness 

Is so terrified they rather lie than admit this 

Or rather omit this, and deal with the strain too 

But your never truly free until you put this in plain view 

And I know it's like the hardest thing in the world to do 

But if you don't then the person who did it controls you, and owns you 

But I got my chance to set it right 

This the hardest song I could ever write 

All that lays, locked in me 

Wasn't mine to hold on to (The hardest song I could ever write) 

And though it plagues, a part of me 

Don't want to leave but I got to (The hardest song I could ever write)