I've Changed Lyrics - Todd Smith - Ll Cool J

Just starin' at these four walls closin' 

In on me, feelin' like time's frozen 

Fadin' in and out, noddin' and dozin' 

Guilt tearin' up my brain like erosion 

What I did to you was wrong, I admit it 

I regret that I did it like a junkie when he's jonzin' 

All alone in what used to be a home 

But you packed up our joy in that bag you put your clothes in 

The voice mail that you left me was scoldin' 

Hot enough to burn a hole in a cauldron 

'Cause it was all true, that's why we all through 

Now your girl's pickin' up the cell when I call you 

Talkin' slick like she ain't here 

She don't want you no more, punk disappear, click 

I need to hit her with a brick 

But that'll only lead me to a worse predicament 

I hope your girlfriend ain't got you on a liquor binge 

With her bitter attitude just 'cause she's sick of men 

But I'ma keep on callin', fightin' 'til the end 

On my knees 'til they bleed, to prove my love again 

I sit in front of yo' crib in the pourin' rain 

Whylin' out screamin' yo' name 

And keepin' ringin' yo' bell 'til you mad as hell 

And call the po'-po', I ain't afraid 

(Yeah, yeah) 

You can get yo' folks and yo' cousins and them 

And try to run me off yo' blocka 

But I ain't scared, I ain't goin' nowhere 

And I ain't stoppin' 'til I gotcha to show you I changed shawty 

I seen you at the movies with some tall cat 

So I bust his headlights with a ball bat 

When I was with you he would give me dap and all that 

Now you in his arms in the mall, what you call that? 

That's what I get for creepin' and crawlin' 

Every other weekend gone until the mornin' 

Sneakin' out to my dirt, dead wrong 

Comin' back past dawn with the guilty mask on 

And I never counted the cost, took heed to warnings 

Try to hurt a rose you get pricked by a thorn 

And it don't feel nice, when you wake up nights 

Shakin' in cold sweats and your whole life's a wreck 

That was the old me, the one I still regret 

The one you couldn't respect, the one you should forget 

But I'ma keep on callin', fightin' 'til the end 

On my knees 'til they bleed, to prove my love again 

I sit in front of yo' crib in the pourin' rain 

Whylin' out screamin' yo' name 

And keepin' ringin' yo' bell 'til you mad as hell 

And call the po'-po', I ain't afraid 

(Yeah, yeah) 

You can get yo' folks and yo' cousins and them 

And try to run me off yo' blocka 

But I ain't scared, I ain't goin' nowhere 

And I ain't stoppin' 'til I gotcha to show you I changed shawty 

To show you I changed shawty 

I really did change shawty 

(I'm tellin' you I've changed) 

I wanna show you I changed shawty 

(I still love you) 

I don't care if the cops got me surrounded 

SWAT teams whatever, tell 'em to send the hounds in 

My mind's in an altered state 

Like I'm headed for a wall, top speed, foot off the brake 

I make a fool of myself, girl whatever it takes 

I already played the fool when I let you escape 

You're as, good as it gets, your friendship your sex 

Everything about you and yours connects 

From your, beautiful smile to the scent of your skin 

The sheets smell different, this is not livin' 

It feels like dyin', and God knows I'm tryin' 

Ain't no sight sadder than a grown man cryin' 

Please find it in your heart to forgive me 

Realize only God can convict me 

We all make mistakes, so have you 

If God show mercy on me, then you should too 

I sit in front of yo' crib in the pourin' rain 

Whylin' out screamin' yo' name 

And keepin' ringin' yo' bell 'til you mad as hell 

And call the po'-po', I ain't afraid 

(Yeah, yeah) 

You can get yo' folks and yo' cousins and them 

And try to run me off yo' blocka 

But I ain't scared, I ain't goin' nowhere 

And I ain't stoppin' 'til I gotcha to show you I changed shawty 

To show you I changed shawty 

I really did change shawty 

(I'm tellin' you I've changed) 

I wanna show you I changed shawty 

(I still love you) 

Oww 

(I'm tellin' you I've changed)