Underground Lyrics - Kimya Dawson

my head is pounding I can't stop the pounding 

I think it is going to explode 

and kill everybody who's in close proximity to the place I call my home 

and they'll make a moving made for tv movie for Life Time all about my life 

that ends with an epitaph one that will make you laugh 

that says "great mom okay wife" 

at it'll be funny to the people who know me 

who know if my body's not burned 

my soul will spend an eternity in misery 

tethered and bound to this earth 

so I'm not a dick or a stick in the mud always ruining things for my friends 

I mustn't forget when I see the sun set that tomorrow it will rise again 

so I tattoo instructions on my ass 

that say "don't ever put this body is a casket 

burn it and put the ashes in a basket 

and throw them in the Puget Sound 

I don't ever want to be under ground" 

oh no, oh no 

I wearing size thirteen basketball shoes 

and laugh at your fishnets 

I'm freaked out and fucked up 

and I'm standing alone in an alley with you 

wanting to show you a cure for your hiccups 

but instead I close my eyes 

the needles are numbered so I'm writing you letters 

and I cannot disguise the fact that I'm nervous when we are together 

and so I fantasize 

that the nights will get shorter and the days will get better 

I feel a kick inside and decide 

if this is a girl I'm naming her Heather 

she'll look just like you but her hair will be feathered 

she'll say how you died before you ever met her 

her hair will be feathered 

my head is pounding I can't stop the pounding 

I think it is going to explode 

there are plus and minuses to sinuitus 

like sometimes I get to go home 

but mostly it hurts so bad I think I'm dying 

I just blew my nose and now I feel like crying 

and the dreams that I have are all of my past lives 

and the seizures would paralyze me in the night 

and I wake up clutching my teddy bear tight 

I'm drooling and trying to turn on the light 

all I can do is hold fast and sit tight 

but what if they forget 'cause you know they just might