The Competition Lyrics - Kimya Dawson

I never wanted to be better than my friends 

I just wanted to prove wrong the people in my head 

the ones who told me I'd be better of dead 

the ones who told me that I would never win 

when I delivered newspapers they said I was too slow 

when I was a barista they said I made lousy foam 

when I worked in retail they said I was a slob 

much too dumb for school and much too lazy for a job 

so I rode my bike like lightning 

and I made cappuccinos that would make the angels sing 

took two showers a day and I dressed up like a princess 

shook my fist in my own face and said I'll show you who's the best 

I wrote the kinds of papers teachers hang up on their walls 

I was employee of the month at seven different shopping malls 

and one time playing football I pulled the tendons in my leg 

to prove that I was tough I hopped on one foot 

and finished up the game 

I thought if I succeeded I'd be happy and they'd go away 

but first thing in the morning I'd still wake up and I'd hear them say 

"you're fat, ugly, and stupid, you should really be ashamed 

no one will ever like you you're not good at anything" 

and sometimes I'd rise to the challenge 

but other times I'd feel so bad that I could not get out of bed 

and on the days I stayed in bed I sang and sang and sang 

about how crappy I felt no realizing how many other people would relate 

now people send me emails that say thanks for saying the things they didn't know how to say 

and the people in my head still visit me sometimes 

and they bring all of their friends but I don't mind 

I play my guitar like lightning 

when I sing I like it when you sing too loud and clear 

different voices different tones all sayin' "yeah, we're not alone" 

I got good at feeling bad and that's why I'm still here 

I got good at feeling bad and that's why I'm still here 

I got good at feeling bad and that's why I'm still here