4:44 Lyrics - Kim Burrell

[Intro: Kim Burrell] 

Do I find it so hard 

When I know in my heart 

I'm letting you down everyday 

Letting you down everyday 

Why do I keep on running away? 

[Verse 1: JAY-Z] 

Look, I apologize, often womanize 

Took for my child to be born 

See through a woman's eyes 

Took for these natural twins to believe in miracles 

Took me too long for this song 

I don't deserve you, I harass you out in Paris 

"Please come back to Rome" 

You make it home 

We talked for hours when you were on tour 

"Please pick up the phone, pick up the phone" 

Said: "Don't embarrass me," instead of "Be mine" 

That was my proposal for us to go steady 

That was your 21st birthday, you mature faster than me 

I wasn't ready, so I apologize 

I've seen the innocence leave your eyes 

I still mourn this death, I apologize for all the stillborns 

'Cause I wasn't present, your body wouldn't accept it 

I apologize to all the woman whom I 

Toyed with you emotions because I was emotionless 

I apologize 'cause at your best you are love 

And because I fall short of what I say I'm all about 

Your eyes leave with the soul that your body once housed 

And you stare blankly into space 

Thinkin' of all the time you wasted in on all this basic shit 

So I apologize 

[Chorus: Hannah Williams] 

I'm never gonna treat you 

Never gonna treat you like I should 

[Verse 2: JAY-Z] 

I apologize, our love was one for the ages and I contained us 

And all this ratchet shit and we more expansive 

Not meant to cry and die alone in these mansions 

Or sleep with our back turned 

We're supposed to vacay 'til our backs burn 

We're supposed to laugh 'til our hearts stops 

And then we in a space where the dark stops 

And lets love light the way 

Like the men before me, I cut off my nose to spite my face 

I never wanted another woman to know 

Something about me that you didn't know 

I promised, I cried, I couldn't hold 

I suck at love, I think I need a do-over 

I will be emotionally available if I invited you over 

I stew over 

What if? 

You over 

My shit? 

[Chorus: Hannah Williams] 

I'm never gonna treat you 

Never gonna treat you like I should 

[Verse 3: JAY-Z] 

And if my children knew, I don't even know what I would do 

If they ain't look at me the same 

I would prob'ly die with all the shame 

"You did what with who?" 

What good is a ménage à trois when you have a soulmate? 

"You risked that for Blue?" 

If I wasn't a superhero in your face 

My heart breaks for the day I had to explain my mistakes 

And the mask goes away and Santa Claus is fake 

And you go online and see 

For Blue's tooth, the tooth fairy didn't pay 

[Chorus: Hannah Williams] 

I'm never gonna treat you like I should