You'll Only End Up Joining Them Lyrics - Put Your Ghost To Rest - Kevin Devine

Tonight I'm posed and popping like a peacock 

I'm pressing flesh, I'm smiling big, my spinning head sings "Stop, just stop" 

Cause what used to calm me down 

Just rips my life to ribbons now 

So I keep smiling, I find my window and quick cut out 

These days my hangman's hunger makes my gut kick 

My sleeping mind, could map it blind 

A flask, a key, a bag, a fifth 

I try to will myself away 

While shouting habits plead their case 

So when the sun sears through my eyes 

My beggar's brain can't compromise 

I splash cold water, I draw the curtains, I stay inside 

And I can't say that it's a sickness, more like a stranger I ask in 

And later realize, was a strangler 

Slipping nooses in my den 

But I was lonely so I asked him, "Would you tie that one on me?" 

It wasn't his fault, I was eager, and I was weak 

So as I inch towards resolution 

Yea I'm not sure which life feels right 

A narrow noose or the wading water 

The hanging head, sore open eyes 

I know my brother he went one way 

And at the fork I heard him say 

"Don't you follow, don't go making my mistakes" 

And I realized what he meant 

Don't kill yourself to raise the dead 

It never works you'll only end up joining them