Freedom To Feel Lyrics - John Reuben

Step away, keep your distance 

I can't be what you want me to be 

But right now there are things inside 

I don't want you to see 

So take your personal spotlight 

Shine it on someone else for a while 

I can't force a happy face or makeshift you a smile 

I can't deny what I see, what I feel or what's in front of me 

So take your world of precious moments of make-believe 

They never made me believe in anything 

But left me with nothing to hold on to, your quick fix 

And magic tricks can only disguise what I was going through 

And now I'm thinkin' it was when it wasn't 

And now I'm tryin' to rationalize what just doesn't 

Come together and somehow doesn't make sense 

But God, how can I convince them when I'm not even convinced? 

Everyone is thinkin' it, but nobody's sayin' it 

Everyone's sayin' it, but nobody's feeling it 

Everyone's feeling it, but nobody's seein' it 

So how am I supposed to know what's real? 

False sense of happiness 

My security wrapped up in this 

These control freaks seek out 

Who they can brainwash and make activists 

They'd rather have me lie 

Than bring my failure to the light 

Keep your secrets to yourself 

It's not about you but them lookin' right 

No time to be ugly 

Don't trouble them with your doubt and fears 

Shout for joy little boys and girls 

You brokenness ain't welcome here 

Well, excuse me while I bleed through and my life 

Becomes see-through 

Don't ask for transparency 

But reject what you seein' too 

Everyone is thinkin' it, but nobody's sayin' it 

Everyone is sayin' it, but nobody's feelin' it 

Everyone is feelin' it, but nobody is seein' it 

So tell me, how am I supposed to know what's real? 

Everyone is thinkin' it 

Everyone is feelin' it 

But nobody is seeing it 

And how am I supposed to feel? 

How am I supposed to know what's real? 

So please 

Can somebody tell me 

How am I supposed to know what's real 

When I was told and controlled how to feel? 

You tell me now 

How am I supposed to know what's real 

When I was told and controlled how to feel? 

Jesus, please tell me 

How are they gonna know You're real 

When we're told and controlled how to feel 

Jesus, tell me please 

How they gonna know You're real 

When they're controlled and told how to feel? 

You tell me 

How am I supposed to know what's real 

When I was told and controlled how to feel? 

You tell me please, God 

How are they gonna know that You're real 

When they're told and controlled how to feel? 

You tell me please 

How am I supposed to know what's real? 

How are they supposed to know what's real? 

How are they supposed to know what's real? 

How are you and I supposed to know? 

Freedom to feel 

How am I supposed to feel? 

How am I supposed to know what's real?