Black Cloud Lyrics - Mood Muzik 4 - Joe Budden

Nothing stays the same forever, not even me 

Check this, check it 

Something must've changed me, niggas might defame me 

But things that used to taint me, no longer seem to restrain me 

Strangely I'm no longer sad, mad or angry 

Shame-ably it pains me, feeling like this just ain't me 

Mainly what do I tell all the people that thanked me 

Mainly those who ordain me, aside from can you blame me 

Motivation again was supplying me is no longer providing me 

Jason Williams something killed whatever was driving me 

Worrying less about the past more about the now 

Less about what I'm going through more about the how 

It's for certain it's been thirty years being fit for hurting 

Now I'm a different person with nothing to overcome in the mist of burdens 

For certain, got 6 figures in my sock drawer 

And honestly this year I expect to make a lot more 

It's hard to live without a budget when life is corrupted 

In a house that's so peaceful that I'm trying to disrupt it 

Scream fuck it not because I have to but because I love it 

Which makes me as fake as the puppets that I speak of disgusted 

Without a paddle up shit's creek 

Dig deep and see it ain't life it's just me 

So be warned as I'm putting on like I'm deformed 

Only so y'all can accept it as being my norm 

Maybe I quit working on me, maybe I given up 

Maybe I been lying to myself maybe I give a fuck. 

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It's enough to make you black out, pull a mac out 

Aim it at the sky while I'm running from a black cloud 

Every day we playin' cat and mouse as I watch it hoverin' over my glass house 

It's enough to make you spazz out, pull a mac out 

Aim it at the sky while I'm running from a black cloud 

Tired enough for me to pass out, tired of running from the black cloud. 

I say it loud hoping someone can hear me clearly 

Trying to make my girl get it she don't know that it's very scary 

But she's a nympho she can come barely near me 

She still want the God in her, think she's mary mary 

The prettiest bitches just want to service me 

While niggas prettiest bitches wouldn't get a word from me 

Some of you haven't heard from me, some of you wouldn't mind murking me 

Found that news funny likes its straight from Ron Burgundy 

These niggas ain't never seen dough 

They can't dream though I bump into 'em in between shows 

People say I'm emo, what that really mean though? 

Is though the song can't breathe I actually make it seem so 

I lost loved ones because they couldn't deal with me 

Cherish whoever still with me though the marriage be killed in me 

Normally it's just me and my lonely mind 

Everyone storm is different so this forecast is only mine 

Fans recognize my misery uplifted me 

Shifted me to my epitome, guess the curse is a gift to me 

Maybe it's serendipity, maybe it's weighing on me physically 

Maybe I should man up and tell God not to solicit me 

Been medicated, meditated 

Sedated, hated 

Character assassinated, all theses years I masqueraded 

Hard headed, if it was on my mind I had to say it 

Tongue on the devil's pitchfork to see how disaster tasted 

Rap is fabricated, rappers are so exaggerated 

Wouldn't be scared of the truth if they weren't castrated 

Grab a mag, spray it, surrounded by people to shoot it before me 

Better unconditionally love my beautiful ugly 

Now lemme speak to who I cater to 

Would you love me to sang before my weeks were not favorable 

Promised to maintain being unique but relatable 

All while suffering from a disease that could do away with you 

Poetry on the beat, spoken-word for the masses 

Therapy over pro-tools, every word is on acid 

Consonants on Kush, every vowel is blunted 

Highly wanted this whole organization privately funded 

This is bigger than the Eiffle, this is alert to public 

Had a cop us by our tunnels and our bridges with the rifle 

Sentences meant to stifle, this is a man aching 

This is the dam breaking, contraband in the making 

This is panic unveiling, got potential but I never met it 

He be trying to come over, it seem like God won't let it 

Either he never got my invite or he just dismissed it 

But if all I'm hearing are the sounds of blackness, why am I pessimistic? 

You'll never progress if you'll never try 

All I ask, let every word I birth never die 

My wings spread, but when I'm at the sky 

Weather didn't change like I thought and had me petrified. 

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