Alive Lyrics - Joe Budden

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Parks on the board 

Real niggas in the booth, let's go 

I got Kdot on the keys 

It go (it go) 

Check this, listen 

I got strangers in my face 

Beggin' me to take a picture 

Still self-centered, they can give a fuck 'bout how a nigga feel 

Bitches hang around to hang around even when shit get real 

But I ain't left nothin', maybe I should write a different will 

They usin' me I'm usin' them, they don't see the angle 

Therapeutic, I don't even fuck 'em unless it's painful 

Why do all these bitches seem to think they can change Joe? 

Judge me all you want I never claim to be an angel 

Patriotic, psychotic, obsessive-compulsive, convulsive, neurotic 

On narcotics, searchin' for you if you got it 

Seein' young blacks gettin' killed weekly that's a moot fact 

If these coppers shoot at me, trust me I'mma shoot back 

Maybe y'all 'll pray for me 

But I don't mean once or even twice, I mean every day for me 

So I'm on my knees, there's gotta be a better way for me 

Open these windows and these doors but demons stay with me 

And baby that's okay with me 

I came in with my heart, what made you wanna leave? 

Fuck with my heart and now it's killin' me 

This be enough to make a nigga cry 

I wish 'em well until this runnin' dry 

They won't ever take me alive 

All I ever do is survive 

And I know cause they already tried 

It's too late cause I've already died 

At least inside, they'll never take me alive 

Lemme get far as fuck away from these niggas 

Fuck away from these hoes 

Where I'm at now its fuck music I don't wanna rap 

I don't wanna perform or host 

And my father's sayin' "get it together" and nothin' matters but my health 

Hope heaven reserved a section for an addict like myself 

Watchin' myself on TV see my knees shaking on that show 

Plus the way shorty's life is now, I bet she's rethinking that "no" 

She thought she was only sayin' no to marriage 

But that "no" is to so much more, now I can't wait to see what her path is 

I guess being a wife ain't sound as fun as bein' a bad bitch 

Couldn't deal with my habits, wasn't me though you'd been catfish 

We're speakin' a different language 

Showin' you the signs in morse code 

Last time a nigga loved two bitches I lost 'em both 

So she scared, try not to get emotionally invested 

I know God will find a way for those emotions to get tested 

Which is cool, maybe not for me 

Front all you want in your heart somewhere 

I know there's a spot for me 

The sad part is when it's vacant, I'll be gone 

How I love you but I hate you 

And all you're doing is being the person that I made you 

From hateful to graceful 

From rageful to grateful 

Then God came and snatched that space for you 

I tried to save it boo 

Everything I caught myself building to that point was made for two 

Writing out the script, wish you'd a told me the page was full 

But fuck it, He knows better than I 

Regret'll subside, let's sever the ties 

After all it's just one less goodbye 

I came in with my heart, what made you wanna leave? 

Fuck with my heart and now it's killin' me 

This be enough to make a nigga cry 

I wish 'em well until this runnin' dry 

They won't ever take me alive 

All I ever do is survive 

And I know cause they already tried 

It's too late cause I've already died 

At least inside, they'll never take me alive 

Lemme get far as fuck away from these bitches 

Fuck away from these hoes 

Lemme get far as fuck away from my niggas 

Lemme get real close to my foes 

They tellin' me that I gotta act famous now, etcetera 

I been regular, so I feel like an anus now 

See all of this time I've just been treatin' y'all accordingly 

On an even plane like no one is any less or more than me 

But the Lord agrees he said, "keep playin' with fire, if you're Joseph you'll get burned" 

I hate second guessing I'll wait 'til the motives get confirmed 

(..) 

Call from the shorty, we off that bitch, option time 

Models, sport some 

All these cities, I got to tour one 

All these bottles, I got to pour one 

All these hoes, i got to call one 

Our situation is a tall one, what you gonna do, pour or run? 

So I'm spending forty thousand dollars on a time-piece 

Help my self esteem and get this shit up off my mind please 

Anybody lookin' for me, y'all know where to find me 

I be right up Steinway nigga I ain't playing hide and seek 

Let that liquor induce ya, then watch how fast it go from a couple niggas on the hookah 

To some triggers, to them shooters, everything that's going on is kinda sicker than I'm used to 

I'm just wrestling with them snakes, you ever kick it with Medusa? 

Let me get the fuck away from these pills 

The fuck away from this drinkin' 

Let me get the fuck away outta my way 

Let me get far as fuck away from my thinkin' 

'Till it's better, it's whatever, shit I'm unapologetic 

Since all i got is my word nigga tell 'em that i said it 

It's Joe 

I came in with my heart, what made you wanna leave? 

Fuck with my heart and now it's killin' me 

This be enough to make a nigga cry 

I wish 'em well until this runnin' dry 

They won't ever take me alive 

All I ever do is survive 

And I know cause they already tried 

It's too late cause I've already died 

At least inside, they'll never take me alive 

Uhh, uhh, uhh 

It go 

I came in with my heart, what made you wanna leave? 

Fuck with my heart and now it's killin' me 

This be enough to make a nigga cry 

I wish 'em well until this runnin' dry 

They won't ever take me alive 

All I ever do is survive 

And I know cause they already tried 

It's too late cause I've already died 

At least inside, they'll never take me alive