I Want The Angel Lyrics - Jim Carroll

I want the angel 

Whose dreams are fatal 

They cause the snake's milk to run and curdle 

I want the angel 

Whose darkness doubles 

It absorbs the brilliance of all my troubles 

I want the angel 

That will not shatter 

Every time I whisper, "girl it does not matter" 

I want the angel 

Who's got the proof 

She signals her devotion from the rails on the roof 

I want the angel 

That comes to stay 

She don't let lawyers and ambition lead her away 

I want the angel 

Whose eyes are raving 

Who takes what I'm giving and not what I'm saving 

I want the angel 

Whose bones are so sharp 

That they can break through their own excuses 

Well, to be a blind man, 

Hey, that would be a fine thing 

Then I could dream at night of total strangers 

And all the music would be so spaceless 

And all the women would be so faceless, 

They'd be so faceless they'd be like old film 

Just like old film I never did process 

I want the angel 

That knows the sky 

She got virtue, she got the parallel light in her eye 

I want the angel 

That's partly lame 

She filters clarity from her desperate shame 

I want the angel 

That knows rejection 

Who's like a whore in love with her own reflection 

I want the angel 

Whose touch don't miss 

When the blood comes through the dropper like a thick red kiss 

If I could break through I could be certain 

But this obsession is like some fiery curtain 

All the numbers reduced to zero 

And those who died young, they are my heroes 

They are my heroes, they took the walk 

Where the heart made sense and the mind can't talk 

I want the angel 

Whose child don't weep 

She's got dreams designed for eternal sleep 

I want the angel 

That will not change 

Into a four-legged monster in love with the strange 

I want the angel 

That never chooses 

And don't come running back every time she loses 

But I want the angel that never loses