This Is A Death Dream Lyrics - Jandek

This is a death dream 

In the daytime 

I go to the cemetery buildings 

In search of books 

And never do I find the right one 

I just browse through death books 

When it seems the ones I want are out 

In the night time I go with friends to the cemetery 

And the entire time concerns 

Carousings and adventures within the cemetery 

But all others are insincere and even silly 

Some figures predominate and I compromise my 

Especial meeting to go with them 

I always attempt to get some of these friends to go with me 

But they are afraid 

It seems I do not want to go alone 

And leave each successive night with hopes for 

Tomorrow's daytime excursion to the cemetery 

Last time I was particularly upset 

Despair that the right books will never be there 

Because people will not bring them back and 

My reliance is weak 

I should find a way to require that which I want 

Of special interest in the dream is the night time attraction 

Of particular growing things 

Which previously were cultivated in horror with another 

In the night wanderings I attempt to get back to these to encounter horror 

But they others are afraid or silly 

And one or two are not 

But show me replicas which are not the same 

This I know and am disappointed 

Earlier for interest I had a wine bottle 

Weird death monsters approached and I admitted them 

As they filed past into my house 

Not the bedroom where others were 

They danced in the living room 

Extremely macabre and death-like moves 

Others saw them and sometime later expressed horror as they left 

Or escaped