One Last Chance Lyrics - Jandek

I need another chance 

I need one last chance 

I've looked at myself 

I don't like what I see 

I need another chance 

To try to do it right 

I can do it right 

If I have the strength 

If I keep my will 

If I direct my body 

I can do it right 

I need another chance 

Because I looked at myself 

And I'm goin wrong 

But I can do it right 

You can show me how 

Like you did before 

When I really needed to do it right 

I was in a fix before 

I was really in trouble 

It was sharp and quick 

It took me by surprise 

And you helped me then 

It was a matter of time 

But this time it's different 

It's been a growing thing 

It wasn't sharp and quick 

No no no no 

It didn't take me by surprise 

It came along slow and soft 

It crept and I saw it all along the way 

It came on bit by bit 

And I knew it all along 

The only difference is now 

It's gone too far 

It's gone too far 

It almost seems irreversible 

I need another chance 

I wanna do it right 

Cause when I looked at myself 

It was going all wrong 

I've got to change my style 

I've got to do something different 

I've got to be in my world 

I've got to see what I see 

I've got to hear what I hear 

I've got to move through time 

With me on my mind 

You can forget the rest 

Because if I think about it I'm gonna lose myself 

And it'll be too late 

Don't let it be too late now 

Don't let it be too late now 

I need another chance 

Cause it's gone too far 

I hope it's not irreversible 

Let me stem the tide 

Let me reverse this thing 

Let me put my hand up and say "Stop" 

Even "Turn around, go back where you came" 

Give me another chance 

Because I can do it right 

I can do it right 

I've got to do it right 

Because if I don't I'm gone 

I'm real gone 

And I don't want to lose 

All of my control 

I wanna be the driver 

The one ridin' in the trunk 

With the rope around my feet and my hand 

And a gag in my mouth 

Don't wanna be kidnapped by 

What? Who? Where? 

I wanna move through time 

With me on my mind 

I wanna be the driver 

I wanna say to my selves, 

"Move like you should, assemble yourselves 

and do right for this body, this mind, 

this soul, this spirit, this being" 

I wanna live right 

I wanna live so right 

I don't wanna go wrong 

And I see myself goin wrong 

So I've got to stop 

I've got to summon my powers 

I've got to drop off all the dead and dying 

I got to cauterize my wounds 

I got to stem the tide of the bad 

I got to say 

"Stop, turn around 

Go back to from where you came" 

I wanna be right, you bad go back 

Go back to from where you came 

Bad bad, go back, bad bad, go back 

I wanna be right 

I wanna be right 

I wanna control my body my soul my mind my spirit 

I wanna be in charge 

I wanna say it's like this 

I wanna say it's like that 

I don't wanna be told 

Don't wanna be told 

"You gotta be like that 

You gotta be like this" 

Cause it don't help none 

I know why I know where I know how 

I know when I wanna be 

I know what I wanna be 

I know how I wanna be 

I know when I wanna be 

I know where I wanna be 

I wanna be right in my own mind 

If I can't be right 

I'm gonna be gone 

I don't wanna be gone 

I just wanna be, me, here, now 

Give me another chance 

Give one more chance 

And let me do right 

Once and for all 

All time eternally 

I wanna be right eternally 

I don't have to be alone 

I can be alone 

I don't have to be alone 

But I can be alone 

But I don't have to be alone 

It doesn't matter 

Right is right 

It comes from outside, not from the outside 

I wanna be right from the inside out 

I want you to see 

I want them to see 

I want to be right for everyone to see 

I wanna be right 

For me, for you, for them, for the elements 

For space, for time 

Please give me another chance 

Don't let it be gone 

Don't it be the end of being right 

I saw myself right 

I let it go, give it back 

Give me another chance, give it back 

I let it go, give it back 

Give me another chance 

I wanna live right 

I wanna live right 

I wanna be in charge of my life 

My death, my eternity 

I wanna be right 

And I'll do anything 

I gotta summon my powers 

I gotta be myself 

I gotta have my will 

I gotta be myself 

I gotta get my strength 

I gotta conquer these foes 

I gotta beat up on bad 

I gotta elevate the good 

It's so easy to see 

Bad and good, I can see 

I can see what's bad and good 

I can look I can tell I can judge 

I can point my finger 

And say "That's bad, that's good" 

And deep inside I know 

I can't be wrong 

If I'm right, give me another chance 

I wanna be right 

I wanna be right 

I wanna be right 

Give me another chance 

Give me another chance 

Give me another chance 

Cause I looked at myself 

And I saw bad 

I looked at myself and I said 

"Oh, is it too late?" 

Is it too late? 

Oh, please don't let it be too late 

Don't let it be too late 

Help me reverse this trend 

Help me stem this tide 

Help me put my hand down and say 

"Stop, turn around, 

Go back to from where you came" 

Let me take the good 

Let me put it in myself 

Let me digest the good 

Let me emanate the good 

Let me be in control 

Don't let this sickness take me over 

Don't let these things get me down 

Don't let these things take effect 

Don't let em change me 

And I don't mind if I change 

But let it be good 

Let me change to the good 

Every time I change 

Every second I move 

Every time 

I turn around 

Kill the bad, kill em 

Kill the bad 

Kill the bad 

Generate the good in me 

Kill the bad things I got inside me 

Let them die 

They don't deserve, let em die 

Just kill em 

It ain't like killin' no 

It's annihilation, extermination, 

Elimination elimination 

Eliminate the bad 

Cast the bad 

Eliminate the bad 

I want to be good 

I wanna be right 

There's only one judge of that 

I know I wanna be right 

I gotta see myself right 

I got to see myself 

If I'm not right, why not? 

Cause I did bad 

Yeah, I did bad 

And I'll tell you this 

Bad is different for everyone that is different 

And that's everyone and everything 

So your bad's not my bad 

But I got bad and you bad 

Unless I don't know you like I know me 

But I know me, and I got bad, and I got wrong 

And I don't like it 

And I want to eliminate it 

I want it gone before I'm gone 

I want bad to be gone before I'm gone 

I don't want to be gone 

I want bad to be gone so I can be 

I don't be right 

I wanna be right 

Give me another chance 

Give me another chance 

I won't let you down, not this time 

Three strikes and you're out 

And I had one 

And I hit a home run 

But I stopped after first base 

And hey, they, 

They pushed me, they 

They pushed and pulled 

But they couldn't pull me any farther than that 

Must of been fear 

I think it was fear 

Cause I had it made 

I had the whole home run 

But I missed it 

Second time up 

I hardly even swung 

I didn't even try 

I quit trying 

I knew what I should be doin 

Every once in a while 

I'd touch my little toe in the water 

But I never did jump in 

I never did dive in to that water 

And that's what I know I gotta do now 

Cause if I don't do it now I'm gone 

Because wrong is at the point 

It's at the point of smothering me 

Smoldering me, drowning me, 

Putting me out 

And I need to burn my flame 

I need to ignite 

I need to spark 

I need to beam 

I need to shine my light 

Give me another chance to shine my light 

I don't want to go down 

I don't have to go down 

Not if I got some will 

And I got some power 

And I got some strength 

And I got some control 

And I'm the driver 

And I'm in charge 

I can do it 

I can do it 

Hey, I got to do it 

If I don't do it, I'm done 

It's either do or be done 

I'm not over yet 

I'm not over 

I'm never gonna be over 

I'm never gonna end 

I shall not end 

I'm not gonna be gone 

I'm gonna be forever 

Eternally I shall be 

And I'm not saying 

That I always was 

I'm saying I shall always be 

And I make this decision now 

I shall be 

I want to do right 

And there is no eye in this universe 

That can tell me 

What right is, because I know what right is 

And I know what wrong is 

By this time I know 

Give me another chance 

Give me another chance 

I surely need your help 

I surely need your help 

To conquer death 

To conquer evil 

To conquer bad 

I wanna be in charge 

I wanna control my destiny 

I wanna live up to my standards 

I know it can be done 

It came sharp and quick 

And you helped me 

And I conquered all 

Now it's come slow and soft 

And I need your help 

For the last time 

Cause if it's not this time 

I believe it's never 

And I can't face that 

I don't have to face that 

I demand your assistance 

It only takes one word 

And that word is yes 

Give me your yes 

And I'll give you mine 

I gave you mine 

I forgot it, and I'm sorry 

But you hit me hard