If Your Fortune Fails You Lyrics - Jandek

Say if your fortune fails you 

You can say I was no good 

Say I led you to destruction 

Bye bye 

I was outside of you 

When you were all around me 

Curtains (?) ??? 

I felt I was a hero 

But it wasn't me 

It was your lady 

Hers 

Now I got too many closing (?) 

Too many mornings just aren't the same 

Maniac visions of a world beyond my eyes 

In the skies of our dreams mama 

Heaven lead (leave?) you