I Need Your Life Lyrics - Jandek

I been through your nursery rhyme 

I been through your nursery rhyme 

I took all your nickels and dimes 

But you left me cold 

You wouldn't let me hold 

On longer than it took to go 

I don't care if I die 

I don't even care if I'm in a wheelchair 

Or in a bed 

Unable to move 

For all I know 

It's better than what I did today 

You lead me on 

You bring me up 

And then you take away my floor 

I'm standing 

I'm trying to stand 

Somehow you push me down 

You let me up and have me on a shoulder 

Tell me go on go ahead on 

And then you push me down 

Down 

But I know, I know you want to let me up 

Another time 

And I don't know why 

Sometimes I think maybe 

You let me up just to push me down 

You let me feel good 

Just to let me feel bad 

And it was OK 

It was so OK 

But now I'm slippin' 

You gave me one thing 

You took away two 

I don't know 

Oh, what you're trying to do 

Am I going down the wrong road 

Am I doing the wrong thing 

Please let me know 

Please tell me loud 

I want to know 

I'm asking please 

Let me know 

Let me know the right way 

Oh, is there a right way 

And I know 

Yes I know 

That there's a wrong way 

I saw today 

But you showed me before 

That I can lose 

All the faith I had 

That I can be 

So small 

That I can lose 

All I got 

All my faith 

All my hope 

Where does it go 

And you can't tell me any little thing 

Because I feel 

I feel 

So bad 

You can be happy 

You can laugh laugh laugh 

But I take a look 

I see the Chinese 

I see the Japanese 

They're laughing and joking 

Having a good time 

I see people in the paper 

I see the models 

Oh what a person 

I see them walking down the street 

They look so good 

But I can't have it 

I'm locked up 

I'm inside this thing 

And I can't 

Oh no I cant 

I can't get out 

I can't take what I want 

I can see it 

Oh I can see it 

But it's not mine 

You build me up 

You show me these things 

You push me down 

You say forget it 

You can't have anything 

You just stay down 

I say let me up 

Please let me up 

You gotta let me up 

You pushed me down 

Down on the ground 

I can't be here 

I can't be here 

Please make a change 

Help me live 

I want to give 

I want to do 

I want to have your life 

I want to have your life 

Give me your life 

Let me up 

I know you can let me up 

You don't have to keep me down 

You don't have to 

You don't have to 

You don't have to keep me down 

Keep these things 

Away from me 

These bad things 

Away from me 

I wanna be right 

I'm willing to live a routine 

I'm willing to exercise my day 

I'm willing to give up 

Hah, I'm willing 

Oh I'm willing 

You've got to let me up 

You know I'll do anything but 

Don't push me down 

Don't push me down 

You make me wonder 

What should I do 

Should I come out 

Yeah, should I leave this thing 

I can do it 

I can do it 

Is that what you want 

I don't think so 

But you can change my mind 

You can change my mind 

You can have me 

Have all of me 

All but, let me up 

Let me up 

Give me a chance 

Don't push me down 

Don't push me down 

And you know I 

I know, I can't ever 

Push you down 

I can't ever 

Let you up 

You got it all 

You got it all 

Give me some 

Give me some of your life 

I want your life 

I want your life 

I'm willing to pay 

Pay the price 

Out of my life 

Take what it costs 

You got it all 

You always had it all 

So take it all 

You know you got it 

Yeah I'll live on 

I'll live on 

And I see the Chinese 

I see the beautiful people 

I want them 

But I don't need them 

I don't need them 

You know what I need 

I need you 

Give me your life 

Give me your life 

Take mine 

Take my life 

You got it 

It's always been yours 

Always been yours 

You got my life 

You got it 

Give me yours 

Give me your life 

Give me your life 

Give me your life 

I need your life 

I need your life 

I need your life 

So what do I do 

Just what do I do 

You'd better show me 

Show me 

Don't push me down 

Don't push me down 

Yeah, yeah I know 

You can push me down 

You can push me down 

You can crush me 

You can snuff me out 

I don't care 

I don't care if I die 

I don't care if I'm in a wheelchair 

I don't care if I'm in a bed 

And I can't even move 

Hey, would it be worse than today 

You can pick me up 

Please pick me up 

Oh please 

Pick me up 

Please 

Oh please 

Pick me up 

You can pick me up 

Don't push me down 

Don't push me down 

I feel bad 

I feel bad 

I been here before 

I've had your nursery rhymes 

I've had your nickels and dimes 

I had your good times 

I had your lovely people 

All over me 

I liked it 

Now they're all gone 

Now I'm alone 

But you got me still 

Yeah you got me still 

You let me move around 

But you got me still 

And you know it 

And you let me up 

But then you go and push me down 

And you hurt me 

And times you hurt me bad 

And I've got one fear 

In my life 

And that fear is that I'm slippin' 

I'm slipping 

And I see it 

And I feel it 

And I know it 

And I know, it doesn't have to be this way 

Tell me what I'm doing wrong 

Tell me 

Tell me what I'm doing wrong 

Because I want to be right 

I want to be good 

I don't want to be bad 

I know some people like to be bad 

And they sing about being bad 

And they say "I'm bad" 

You know, I want to be good 

I want to be right 

I want to be good and right 

I don't want to have to fight and lose 

Please let me win 

Let me win this war 

I'm on your side 

I'm on your side 

What else I gonna do 

You push me down 

You let me up 

I don't want to be down 

I don't want to be down 

Please 

Please 

Let me up 

Let me win 

Let me get this war taken care of 

I'll be on your side 

Where else am I gonna be 

Uhh, I love you 

I surely do 

If you want me down 

I'll be on the ground 

But let me feel 

Like I'm not losing ground 

Let me win 

Let me be on top somehow some way 

I don't need to be conventional 

Let me up 

Let me up 

Oh please let me up 

You know it's been so long 

It's been so long 

I'm trying to remember 

It's not easy 

I see myself slipping 

I don't want to slip 

Let me up 

Let me up 

I need to be up 

I need to be right 

I'm willing to work 

Ah, work, work 

I'm willing to work 

I love you 

I love you 

Ahh, I love you 

I love you 

Please let me win 

Let me win 

Somehow let me win 

I need to win 

Let's not have any misunderstanding 

I need to win 

I'm asking, please don't push me down 

I need to win your love 

And I'll do anything 

I don't know if I'm hurting myself 

I surely hope not 

But I feel like I may be slipping 

I want some help 

So I don't have to go down 

'Cause I see the Chinese and the Japanese 

Laughing, talking, acting just like animals 

Why can't I be like an animal 

Take care of myself the right way 

Sure would be good nice 

Sure 

Let me ask you 

Another time 

Treating me right 

Treating me right 

I got some kind of feeling I'm not being treated right 

I don't know if I'm not treating myself right 

Or you're not treating me right 

But I'm slipping 

And I don't want to be slipping 

I want to move on 

I want to create 

I want to be ahead 

I want to win 

I want to love 

I want to feel like I'm moving and doing things right 

But oh I don't feel too good about it 

Why not 

Why don't I feel good 

Hey I don't know about other people 

I don't know what they do 

I don't know if they feel right 

Sometimes they look like they feel just fine and I don't know