Hope Of Morning Lyrics - Icon For Hire

My mind's a kaleidoscope, it thinks too fast 

Blurs all the colors 'til I can't see past 

The last mistake, the choice I made 

Staring in the mirror with myself to blame 

Sometimes I'm afraid of the thoughts inside 

Nowhere to hide inside my mind 

I'm scared that you'll compare and I'll look a lifetime past repair 

I second guess myself to death, I re-solicit every step 

What if my words are meaningless? What if my heart's misleading this? 

I try to capture every moment as it comes to me 

Bottle up the memories and let them keep me company 

When the hope of morning starts to fade in me 

I don't dare let darkness have its way with me 

And the hope of morning makes me worth the fight 

I will not be giving in tonight 

When I'm old and grey, or thirty, or whatever happens first, 

I'll need you to reassure me I didn't waste a verse 

Or worse, what if my life's work is reduced to just myself 

Like never let you get a word in, while I dissect my mental health 

Or lack thereof, whatever, there's too many things to track 

I really can't remember if I'm insane or insomniac 

Now days, all the kids want crazy, wanna diagnose themselves 

Trade up made up epidemics, pass around prescription pills 

But my disorder can't be cured by a bottle, blade, or dose 

Self-disgust and selfishness tend to hold me awfully close 

But I don't wanna let you see that, I don't want my friends to know 

Self-disgust and selfishness take me everywhere I go 

When the hope of morning starts to fade in me 

I don't dare let darkness have its way with me 

And the hope of morning makes me worth the fight 

I will not be giving in tonight 

Try as I might to keep it together 

Why is recovery taking forever 

Fool the whole world, just until I get better 

I'm terrified I'll be faking forever 

On and on I wonder what went wrong inside my head 

I don't have to have the answers, but tonight I wish I did 

All the pain I can't explain away won't fade 

All the the secrets silenced by the shame 

Don't make me say it 

Don't make me say it 

Don't make me say it 

Don't make me say it 

Don't make me say it 

Don't make me say it 

Don't make me say it 

When the hope of morning starts to fade in me 

I don't dare let darkness have its way with me 

And the hope of morning makes me worth the fight 

I will not be giving in tonight