13 Years Lyrics - Everclear

Woke up sweating in the sun 

Sprawled across my big brother's grave 

Shaking and drunk with sleep 

I crawled to my feet and walked up into the shade 

Of a young elm tree that must have been planted since the last we came 

Vicki, my mom, and me, cleaned the dirt 

From the plaque that says his name 

Walking to my girlfriend's car 

Came back down on me 

Yeah, I guess I fell to my knees 

To keep from falling face-first into the dream 

The vision that had had me twisting out under the afternoon sky 

I didn't know it then 

But it was thirteen years to the day he died 

He held his hand in me 

Like brothers we walked 

Through the colorless world of an alcohol dream 

I talked for hours 

Trying the break through the silence 

That he held over me 

Then he started away, turned his head 

Keep it up so you can die like me 

Ever since my brother odied 

I've drifted all over from town to town to town 

Every place I go it's always the same 

I keep doing junk, I keep going down 

My mama got religion and my sisters gave up 

Man I just gave up too 

I just died inside 

Don't wanna die like george 

Everybody says there's things to see 

Everybody's pointing their fingers at me 

I woke up driving 

After another blackout from another bad drug 

I can't shake this hell that I made for myself 

For every other life I took 

See my sister's son walk the line I walked 

He's only sixteen 

If he don't learn from my mistakes 

He's gonna waste away 

He's gonna die like me