Scarred Lyrics - Esoteric

I see them coming at me all the time, 

Lashing out, killing me over and over again. 

And I laugh for I enjoy all the deaths that I receive, 

The pain and destruction of my flesh, 

Killing me over and over again. 

The blackness still comes, forever killing me. 

I rock back and forth, staring through. 

The blackness which slices through, 

My scarred and dead flesh, yet still I die as I see my skin shred. 

Dead again and still I stare at the blackness which is still there. 

Have they not yet reached the core, of my flesh so battered and torn? 

Maybe I have no core, maybe inside there's nothing. 

If so what do I die for? 

Staring, watching, willing, killing, 

Seeing, dreaming, screaming, screaming, 

Killing, killing, killing, killing: 

Willing, filling what wasn't there, emptiness my despair. 

Stuck, unable to move off my chair, 

Rocking back and forth, with no eyes, yet still I stare. 

At the blackness which is always there. 

[Music - Greg. 3/1993] 

[Lyrics - Greg. 2/1993]