Tears On The Pillow Lyrics - Singles - Efcey

(hook) 

She said I wonder when it'll be my day 

'Cause I'm not too far from breaking down 

All I've got are screams inside 

But somehow they come out in a smile 

And I'm wondering if I'll always feel this way, this way 

I've made alotta mistakes and all the shit I cannot erase 

And I've been thinkin' if I drink I'll probably be more at stake 

This life isn't so great and I just tried to fluctuate 

But I'm so tired of all the bullshit leading up to constant hate 

The love I never found and the fake friends who knocked me down 

Just made me stronger but it's what we would always expect in this small town 

Don't you hate when you can not trust? when you give it all, and it's not enough? 

But you had enough, and you're looking down, hating on what you become 

You fall you get back up and show them where you're truly from 

Pessimistic in all my strains optimistic I needa gain 

So realistic heavy pain and socialistic so called "friends" 

Tired of all these trends and I hope animosity could end 

I'm thinkin of an escape and a new life I gotta reshape 

All these critics could emulate but they know that I can demonstrate 

All the shit, all the stress, all the lies and all the mess 

All the lies you're so careless and all these struggles on my chest 

(hook) 

She said I wonder when it'll be my day 

'Cause I'm not too far from breaking down 

All I've got are screams inside 

But somehow they come out in a smile 

And I'm wondering if I'll always feel this way, this way 

This doesn't usually happen when I'm lost in all attraction 

And my music and the sports is what I couldn't ever balance 

And I did try, but in honesty my apologies but it was a challenge 

Like a photo with no colors or a book without a caption 

Some they shook and some are crooks but all they look inaction 

No one knows my struggle or the shit that makes distraction 

I'm living in a bubble and the suffering grows double 

And this life is so unpuzzled so give up or fucking hustle 

Penetrating these hearts I hope one day you get my view 

And I lost a friend from cancer and I know he'll guide me through 

I've been vituperated and used, cheated, lied spitted and chewed 

But I manage to get up neglecting obsticles and feuds 

Clever intuition always wishing but you're only missing 

Tryna get it finished but these people on your business 

I will never hurt a women but I would be slapping bitches 

Tryna overpass these bridges causes madness when you're spitting 

(hook) 

She said I wonder when it'll be my day 

'Cause I'm not too far from breaking down 

All I've got are screams inside 

But somehow they come out in a smile 

And I'm wondering if I'll always feel this way, this way 

There's some things I don't plan to say keep it secret so no dismay 

Cause I've been Looking for brighter days but I keep on heading far astray 

Hating on my music when you ain't got shit to play 

And these bitches just betrayed me so I could fall again 

Cmon Efcey don't you give up, I know you're fucking fed up 

And the rain can't last forever just be patient for a sunny weather 

Maybe you're right I'll take a break watch for the friends that'll be the fake 

No one was there for me but it doesn't matter cause no one can relate 

I'm thinking I'm tripping, drinking and mixing imagine living in killings 

Popping a Xanax every time I feel I'm gettings those thoughts about quitting 

Damn I gotta slow down, They hate it when I'm rapping fast 

They hate it when they're clapping hands for me and say I'm acting bad.. 

I'm sayin' I've been tryna swallow shit for a long time 

I wish I could get through all the drama and be just as fine 

I haven't kept sobriety I'm popping a variety 

I can't even sleep at night and having days without anxiety 

(hook) 

She said I wonder when it'll be my day 

'Cause I'm not too far from breaking down 

All I've got are screams inside 

But somehow they come out in a smile 

And I'm wondering if I'll always feel this way, this way