(not) ...for The Kids Lyrics - Daymeus

[Verse 1] 

I come from a little city where it's not real 

Common to hear a gat crack a crack deal 

In my youth I would steal what I couldn't afford 

And vandalize what other folks could, so feelin' 

Rebellious, a little hellion hella bent on competin' 

Matured quick into rap's reprehensible demon 

I'm meanin' to deal with me 

Is to noose whatever soul you previously had 

But that's neither here nor there 

In school I was the kid, no cares, just jests 

I gave a fuck less, no, fuck-less 

Never fucked, was fuckin' invisible 

Fuck them times, no cinema flashback 

This mystery ink, fam, but I wear the mask 

Back then, I had a problem with authority 

And a problem with not bein' in control 

I'd speak outta turn in slurs and slang 

And curse like "fuck" "dick" "slut" 

A dog who chewed his chain till it broke (ruh roh) 

I learned to slide under the radar as I grew, though 

So dumb hoes left me the fuck alone 

Then I got pushed and pissed on for bein a bit quiet 

Little did they know that I made roasts in front of (where) 

Closed doors since 3rd grade 

Mind flightless but a bird brain 

Never knew I would turn that egg to this 

Since I'm stupid as shit, right? 

Now they a slave to my cranium, got a master mind 

Now where my friends from those grades? 

It's like a search and find 

I'll bet one foots their graves 

And, fuck, I'm glad that I waited till now to complain 

You could say this is my aged wine 

Or you could say that, whack, be this shit 

Upon my high horse, dick, Trojan tactic 

Coverin' my self and my—ah, shit 

The fuck was I? Oh right, k 

Right out my senior year, was lost on what I wanted (yeah) 

I started dating this bitch, and I swore she was the one (slut) 

But after roughly 2 and a half years of on and off 

And doing nothing at all, we fell apart splittin' my heart in pieces 

And I had walked out my job too, like a month before 

So I sat alone in my room, in the dark, for weeks 

20 years old, feelin weak 

I couldn't eat, neglected friends, tweakin' beats 

Stuck in my head I... I wanted to cut my neck 

And my cousin, lived out in Cali 

The place I'd planned on movin' in a year to be a writer 

My fam had planted thoughts of me in a flight 

They could see the signs, I ain't sleep at night 

I needed to leave Toledo behind and I did 

Thanks to Rob and Blaize and mom and dad 

Now here I am... Sorta 

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[Chorus] 

How can I make things worse? 

Words bleed through teeth leveling 

Some hurt, someone please call me 

Help, ease these words bleeding in attempt to remedy me 

[Verse 2] 

Who luggin' bricks of pain over shoulder 

Over here, fuckin' standin'? (who?) 

And he got some tale to tell y'all 

He worked 8 years to become the man that y'all need 

On the real though, I need you 

Cause I can vent to you 

You can censor shit I don't need 

You just make me be this dude I respect, that I try to best 

You gotta see, I ain't much, yo 

But if you let me, flow could lobotomize, contort minds 

Y'all advise while I yack the insides outta mine 

I'll take my time 

And you can take my time 

And my life (here! Yeah!) 

Ever feel I fell off 

Take me back to this moment, I'll hold my tongue in my throat 

Remindin' there ain't no threat that I pose 

I'm here solely to free my soul, see 

Rest of the kicks, they costed me 

So much, for y'all I went 4 G's in debt 

Never bet that my budget would go so up 

I woulda done anything for ya 

Monarchy's in my gut, I'm all for the rules, fun, yeah 

Lemme unload my mistakes (yeah) 

And you can take all of the lessons 

And let me hang on to the pain (yeah) 

It's more of a curse than a blessin' 

I'm bettin' you gettin' so restless, I am relentless 

Somebody pull up my hand cause the pencil's 

Stuck on the page while I'm stuck on the fence 

I'm lucky the bottom ain't minced meat, yet 

Cause I erase and race, i-rate, cause I rate me so low 

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Oof, what the fuck was that? 

You see what happens when you're not here? 

This 

[Chorus] 

How can I make things worse? 

Words bleed through teeth leveling 

Some hurt, someone please call me 

Help, ease these words bleeding in attempt to remedy me