In This One, I'm Dead Lyrics - Daymeus

[Intro: Daymeus] 

That chair, from beneath, I just kick it 

[Verse 1: Daymeus] 

I've gone and done it 

I didn't think that I'd follow through, I didn't 

This can't be fuckin' happening 

I wanted to be free, I mean, I guess, yeah 

I do look quite at peace 

But I'm thinkin' regret gonna kick in, jeez 

I should of seen this comin', oh fuck me 

You had to seen this comin' 

You've been fuckin' listening, yes, you 

You heard the rest, the me, depressed 

You voyeur, the spoken, hopeless, jests, finessed 

I'm more of the blame, I guess, when I think about it (oof) 

I'm sorry 

I'm feelin heat, is this hell? 

Yeah, maybe I deserve this, I know well 

But fuck, they could turn down the furnace 

I'm here, shit, clearly I earned it 

My sternum is burnin', I'm sweating 

Heavy, this is, to reflect 

You shouldn't see this, you could care less, huh? 

You've lost respect for these, I see, friend 

I'm in the deep end, you don't dive 

Alive you are and uh 

A pretty good grasp on just why I'm down low 

Religion, I deny, no church, I curse 

Inflict hurt and rely on lies to subside desires 

I'm selfish, could use a beverage 

Wanna be sexin' the next girl 

I lust for crowds like The Hex Girls 

Blatantly shut-eyed to rules 

Like that period of time in school when I stole heaps 

And creeped out the house 

With my friends with sheets over pillows, ha 

To wreck shit in the neighborhood 

Neighbors detested our bull shit 

Dickish antics and how we never got caught (why?) 

Cause we're just too smart, clearly 

Guess I'm a bad boy, forgive me, I live recklessly 

My life's heinous—shit 

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I'm not even alive anymore 

Mom, dad, Maygan, Connor 

I just fuckin' left them 

Fuck 

You fuckin' knew didn't you, mute? 

I opened up to you, you heard all the warnings signs 

But you'd rather be entertained 

By me pourin' all of my brain out, I'm nothing now 

See, I won't ever write again 

Songs or notes, lyrics, or books 

No more jokes, I can't provoke folks 

I'll never travel the globe 

I'll never know what it's like to be a father 

To have me a daughter or son 

I'm in a slumber I won't wake from 

I don't even know if anyone's listening when I talk 

Some poor fuck will find me 

Cops will phone my fam, they'll all be crying 

You feeling guilty yet, listening? 

You sorta did this to me 

Now, there will be a funeral people attend and that'll be the end 

I'll turn into an anecdote, somebody somebody use to know 

He died, a rope, took his own life 

A long time ago, damn 

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[Chorus: Daymeus] 

I see me fallin' slowly 

I taste that bitter poison 

I feel it coming to an end, still I hear 

You don't really miss home, these are open seems 

Fall in love with those tears, leave it, let them bleed 

Blurred in all of these lies, is it them or me? 

Still I hear this 

Nanananana na nananana na 

Nanananana na nananana na 

Nanananana na nananana na 

Nana nana na 

[Skit] 

Richard: Will you sit down Emma, you're makin' me nervous 

Emma: Richard, shut up. I literally only brought you so you couldn't tell mom I left you home alone 

Richard: I'm 16, I don't need a fucking babysitter. And I came on my own free will 

Emma: Oh my god. Jared, are you finished yet? This house—this room freaking gives me chills 

Jared: Yeah, babe, just a few more pictures. This shit's gonna look so fucking dope on my blog 

Emma: Okay, just hurry 

Richard: You know... my friend from school says Daymeus's family moved out right away cause he started haunting this place. That's why no one moved in 

Emma: I swear to god, Richard 

Richard: No, no, no, not like horror movie haunted. I mean, it was his family. But like, they would constantly hear moving around in his room and music would randomly turn on and off 

Jared: Rich, that was probably the most basic ghost story I've ever heard in my life 

Richard: Really? That you've ever heard? 

Jared: Yeah 

Richard: That's pretty bold 

Jared: I know 

Emma: I can't believe it's been 3 years. I remember seeing him around school when I was a freshman and he was a senior 

Jared: Guys, guys, this is a fucking rope 

Richard: Oh shit 

Emma: Where'd you find that? 

Jared: That closet door just sorta fucking creeped open and it was just laying on the ground 

Richard: You don't think that's the rope that he... 

Emma: Guys, this was a mistake. I think we should leave 

Jared: Emma! 

Richard: What's happening to her? 

Jared: I don't know 

Richard: Emma! 

Emma: What?? 

Richard: Emma! 

Jared: Richard, call your parents 

Emma: Guys, you're scaring me. Guys! Hello? 

[Interlude: Emma] 

What's happening? 

I can see but... I can't control myself 

This doesn't feel like... me 

Where am I? 

Am I dead? 

[Verse 2: Daymeus & Emma] 

This is so wrong, I know 

I feel I'm in control 

This darkness, deep inside of me 

Actions they won't condone 

I feel so cheated 

Don't think I was meant to be here tonight 

Internal bleeding but I don't think I put up a fight 

This is all I've wanted 

This is all I've dreamt 

Where has my time went? 

Why am I saying these... 

[Chorus: Emma & Daymeus] 

I see me fallin' slowly 

I taste that bitter poison 

I feel it coming to an end, still I hear 

You don't really miss home, these are open seems 

Fall in love with those tears, leave it, let them bleed 

Blurred in all of these lies, is it them or me? 

Still I hear this 

Nanananana na nananana na 

Nanananana na nananana na 

Nanananana na nananana na 

Nana nana na 

Nanananana na nananana na 

Nanananana na nananana na 

Nanananana na nananana na 

Nana nana na 

Nanananana na nananana na 

Nanananana na nananana na 

Nanananana na—(Shh)