The Promise Of Agony Lyrics - Singles - Dark Angel

(Hoglan) 

You tell me 

What will become of us? 

Are the lines so drawn and the stage so set 

That as we age what remains is burdened sufferance? 

My mortality looms, in its visage is doom 

And it's speaking to me alone 

The years will unfold but what is the use? 

In solitude I'm left to atone 

The sins of my past 

Are returning to gnaw at my core 

The scars I have left 

And those that have been left on me 

My purpose in life 

Is it unfair to assume I have one? 

I'm not fooling myself 

What now awaits is a nightmarish end 

What I'm saying, do you understand? 

Do you know what it's like to feel inadequate? 

And the future ahead has no place for you 

As if you ever thought it did& 

Alone in my shell, if I come out I'll die 

I don't want to escape though I should 

No, just leave me alone, I don't want your help!! 

Yeah, if you could ease my pain you would& (right!) 

No, you don't even know me! 

And your words of comfort fall upon deaf and frightened ears 

I lament my bitter fate 

Lachrymation upon examining my fears 

I've built a fortress around my soul, impregnable the door 

I refuse to admit you to my netherworld 

You're correct, I've absolved my self-control 

This spiraled course depression has me on 

Ag only!!& 

I'm a study in despair 

Domineered by the promise of agony! 

And the happiness is bound 

And the hopelessness is found 

I'm in agony!! 

Can't you understand 

Despondency commands my agony!! 

And I'm waiting to die alone& 

As I'm drowning in sea 

Of abused visions and shattered dreams 

A chilling descent into a phobic hell 

Insanity's blade performs it's correctional surgery 

Impending doom in this blackened room 

I can give this all away 

It's all so easy to capitulate 

Nothing is making me stay& 

Retreating within 

And hiding behind my wall 

Dealing without 

There's no escape from this moribund state 

Awaiting deep sleep 

We don't care if I don't wake 

In darkness' hands 

Though terrified, I feel safe 

I don't fit into the scheme of things! 

These years as an outcast are quickly wearing thin 

My carefree days are a thing of the past 

And I welcome the fact that I'm coming to an end 

Melancholy, my bride, I devote unto thee 

My, breath, my mind and my soul 

As silence washes over me 

I've never been so tired, so cold 

Confusion seizes onto me! 

Manacled and beaten, chained up by its frozen vice 

This is killing me 

But my mind is set, and I'm too weak to fight 

Have you any idea what It's like to want to die? 

Then you will know from where I speak 

This winter in my soul 

This winter in my soul& 

And I want to be left alone& 

Yet again, I have no answers 

The confusion of my fate takes its toll 

Symbolically speaking, what's another life 

That lists "ending itself" as its one and only goal? 

I've examined my options and I see nothing in sight 

Is there an avenue I've yet to explore? 

As of now, I'm decided 

I have nothing to live for& 

Defeated, alone 

Yet you laugh at the state that I'm in! 

I can't help what I am 

But you think this is all in my head 

I'm not asking for help 

But I want you to understand 

That I'm going away 

You guess if I'm coming back 

You wish I had a will to live? 

This condition I'm in didn't happen overnight 

I've hated myself for an eternity 

Now I finally feel that I'm doing something right 

As darkness descends I behold the candlemass 

I seek intimacy with death 

Again, you're correct, these feelings will pass 

When my memory is all you have left 

My life has metamorphosed 

Into a marriage of the twisted and macabre 

I'm sitting here now feeling the effects of my words 

Trying to see a reason why I should go on 

I have to wonder, do I still believe in God? 

'Cause God no longer believes in me 

I lay myself down for my final peace 

I welcome death, my spirit is free& 

And I'm pleading to die alone&