Gangsta's Cry Lyrics - Crooked I

So many memories I don't understand 

They got me weak in the knees like I don't wanna stand 

I try to snap back like a rubberband 

But flashbacks got another plan 

To bury this rap cat under land 

My closest aunt fell victim to a mad man 

He rapped her he stabbed her he through her in the trash can 

In Tulsa Oklahoma da home of the GAP ban 

they buried Charlene boomie 

My biggest rap fan 

I cant express how much I miss the time I spent with you 

God why they have to kill my mamas twin sister 

Niqqa you lucky cops sent you to jail 

Cuz I was comin to send you to hell 

After my choppers wings split you 

I was jus a shorty when my cousin Bobby died 

A star runnin back from Long Beaches probably high 

His friend and his wife set off the drama right 

He caught them in bed which let to his homicide 

Right on his death bed prepared to die 

He wrote a song for his wife 

The title That's Not A Far Goodbye 

Cuz goddamn is not a fair goodbye 

Young or not 

Guns I woulda popped for you 

Where was i? 

I cant forget my Aunt Zeb 

Since you left I been missin you 

And I will til my last breath 

Why do so many loved ones have to meet a fast death 

They wanted me to succeed how can I half step? 

Look up in the sky, tears in my eyes 

Its hard to say goodbye even gangstas cry 

Im in a dark room talkin to pictures 

Too many loved ones lost and I miss ya god knows that I miss ya 

And even though im strong, now that your gone 

Its hard to carry on even Gangstas cry 

Late at night I get lost in the Scriptures 

Wish I could dig off in your coffin and get ya I miss ya 

I put my pain on paper 

Theres nothing else I can do to remove it 

My music is therapeutic if I don't use it I lose it 

Its so easy to pick up liquor and abuse it 

When life is confusing you on a way that you need to view shit 

I look at my gun and think of my buddies Leak and Bloody 

Cuz this is the same demon that took my people from me 

A lot of my homies was killed over illegal money 

I lost so many to bangin dat it aint even funny 

Its Cookie, its Ramon, its Charles, too many to name 

Its solemn and shane, its pain in memories lane 

It's a shame when obituaries stack thicker than dictionaries 

I question is my mind mentally sane 

My uncle LeRoy is gone, god let em in, he was more of a father 

figure than His brother ever been 

Look at my brain its like the head of a veteran 

I fight more pain than Excedrin medicine ever did 

I cant sleep my nightmares are comin unannounced 

I dream about people I love cuz im runnin elf 

Is rap lyrics my therapy they don't wanna bounce 

Its trapped spirits im thinkin my minds a haunted house 

Sometimes I pray to my creator til my knees hurt 

I need work, my granny use to say I need church 

This is for my people beneath dirt 

We makin songs gettin tattoos and rockin 

Rest In peace t-shirts 

Look up in the sky, tears in my eyes 

Its hard to say goodbye even gangstas cry 

Im in a dark room talkin to pictures 

Too many loved ones lost and I miss ya god knows that I miss ya 

And even though im strong, now that your gone 

Its hard to carry on even Gangstas cry 

Late at night I get lost in the Scriptures 

Wish I could dig off in your coffin and get ya I miss ya 

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