Monster Lyrics - Boondox

Monster, how should I feel? 

Creatures lie here 

Looking through the window 

Monster, how should I feel? 

Creatures lie here 

Looking through the window 

Monster, how should I feel? 

Creatures lie here 

Looking through the window 

I'm not afraid of the dark 

But I'm afraid of my heart 

And I'm afraid that everything is gonna fall apart 

Always afraid that things will never get better 

I went from writing down rhymes 

To typin' suicide letters 

Diagnosed with paranoia 

You can check my prescription 

I'm a manic depressive 

One of my many conditions 

I'm not a prophet though I say it 

But I'm seein' a vision 

My life, it was beyond it one a one-way collision 

If ignorance is bliss 

Then I'm devoid of any sorrows 

'Cause I don't wanna know the outcome 

Of today or tomorrow 

I just wanna hide inside my own private Hell 

How can I ever get to Heaven 

When so many angels fell? 

I'm just a human being 

I'm just only being human 

With eternity and judgement 

From another always loomin' 

It's a wonder that I made it 

With these visions in my head 

With all these monsters at my window 

Starin' at me in my bed 

Monster, how should I feel? 

Creatures lie here 

Looking through the window 

Monster, how should I feel? 

Creatures lie here 

Looking through the window 

If you're a friend to me or kin to me 

An enemy or into me 

I'm begging on a bended knee 

Come and put an end to me 

Put me out my misery 

Permanently, no injury 

I'm tired of fighting entities 

I'm running out of energy 

Feel like a lost boy 

Searchin' for the answers 

Just waitin' on tragedy 

A heart attack or even cancer 

So many monsters hidin' 

Waitin' 'round the corner for us 

If life is like a song 

I'm at the verse and searchin' for the chorus 

Maybe I should stop and take a moment 

Put it in perspective 

Maybe I should take a knife 

And take a life and get injected 

I just wanna go out 

On my own fuckin' terms 

Knowing it was me that put me 

In the dirt and with the worms 

I think I'll pop another pill 

Try to heal the ill 

Wash it down with gasoline 

Light a match and that's for real 

But I'll just probably go to sleep 

And try to clear my head 

Hiding from these monsters 

At my window, underneath my bed 

Monster, how should I feel? 

Creatures lie here 

Looking through the window 

Monster, how should I feel? 

Creatures lie here 

Looking through the window