Subconscious Lyrics - Reprieve - Ani Difranco

On one hand I'm walking 

The way that I do 

Looking like I'm lost in thought 

But I'm looking for you 

It's so subconscious 

The way that I feel 

Too bad my subconscious life 

Is the more real 

And I ain't in the best shape 

That I've ever been in 

But I know where I'm going 

And it ain't where I've been 

I know where I'm going 

And it ain't where I've been 

Some kind of anxiety 

Has gotten hold of my heart 

And I just want to run home 

When I feel it start 

Plastic bottles of water 

Sealed windows, forced air 

And gazillions of cell phones 

Beaming through my (h)air 

And I ain't in the best shape 

That I've ever been in 

But I know where I'm going 

And it ain't where I've been 

I know where I'm going 

And it ain't where I've been 

I'm tossing and turning 

Between sleepless dreams 

And I'm poised on the edge of 

What it all means 

So I turn my back 

And I spread my arms wide 

And I let myself fall in 

Way deep inside 

And I ain't in the best shape 

That I've ever been in 

But I know where I'm going 

And it ain't where I've been 

I know where I'm going 

And it ain't where I've been