Studying Stones Lyrics - Knuckledown - Ani Difranco

I am out here studying stones 

Trying to learn to be less alive 

Using all of my will 

To keep very still 

Still even on the inside 

I've cut all of the pertinent wires 

So my eyes can't make that connection 

I am holding my breath 

I'm feigning my death 

When I'm looking in your direction 

Course numb is an old hat 

Old as my oldest memories 

See that one's my mother 

And that one's my father 

And that one in the hat, that's me 

It's a skill I hoped to abandon 

When I got out on the open road 

But any more pent up emotion 

I think I'm gonna explode 

There's never been an endeavor so strange 

As trying to slow the blood in my veins 

To keep my face blank 

As a stone that just sank 

Until not a ripple remains 

I am high above the tree line 

Sitting cross legged on the ground 

When all of the forbidden fruit has fallen and rotted 

Well that's when I'm gonna come down